This past weekend I kept busy. I transformed our "pantry" area and weeded the Heidi Allen Remembrance Garden. I was encouraged to sit and relax but my mind and heart opted for a focused and productive time. At first it was subconscious, but as I drove to school this morning it made sense.
Last year, I left school after the first three days and didn't know when I'd return. Mom was home with Hospice and her days were few, little did we know that the following Monday she would pass away. I think Friday's ambition to beautify the pantry and the hours spent at Heidi's garden prevented me from thinking about how sad and difficult this weekend was last year. Go figure, instead of taking time to reflect and grieve, I filled the schedule.
I'm thankful God pointed this out to me on my drive to work this morning. To choose busy over the quiet and necessary time is a bad habit from
Jesus invites us,
"Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest."
Matthew 11:28 NLT
With my Mom's smile and memory as a reminder, I plan to put first things first - I need to take care of me so I can take care of others. My drive to work is only about five minutes, imagine how God would have spoken to me if I had a longer commute. Have a great week, catch ya tomorrow.