Over the past couple weeks a fog has lifted from my mind and heart. I'm able to see the light and good surrounding me. Don't get me wrong, I think I've stayed pretty positive and upbeat yet there are days when it's difficult to put my feet on the floor and get out, and active. After my sister's kidnapping, I chose to hide, so at least I didn't do that after my Mom passed away. Instead, I've kept my eyes and heart focused on God and taken it one day at a time. This is the best anyone can do, especially after the loss of a parent, right?
I anticipated feeling quite down at this time in August because of the anniversary of my Mom's cancer diagnosis, and the approaching departure of our daughter to her next adventure. BUT, I am feeling better than I've felt in a year, now will I have the same Polly Anna and cheerful attitude in a couple weeks? I hope so, but I won't make a promise I'm not sure I can keep.
This I do know, I'm feeling better because of The One, God, who continues to lead, help, encourage, inspire, and motivate me to be the person He designed me to be. God uses my family and friends, you, and those I haven't even met. You are his messengers, angels, and servants...thank you for the blessing you are to me. May His light shine through me, and you, as we get on the road again.
"My heart is bursting with a new song;
lyrics to my king erupt like a spring
for my king, to my king;
my tongue is the pen of a poet, ready and willing."
Psalm 45:1 Voice