Within the pages of Where's Heidi? One Sister's Journey I touch one way I wasted time and money searching for someone and something to fill the void left from Heidi's absence. I also searched for Heidi using the lies of satan to lead the way. This got me no where but lost in the woods with a good friend. Von was always there to listen and support whatever craziness I ventured into.
Thankfully today, I've seen the Light, literally and shared this with Von and others I've met along the way. I won't spend a lot of time dwelling on the darkness of the past but something happened on our 2004 exploration into the depths of the woods.
I blamed God and thought He wasn't anywhere to be found when Heidi disappeared and for the decade to follow. I had moments of lucidity but the lies and darkness smothered these momentary truths. But God used this last search into the woods to break the barrier and start to soften my fearful, skeptical, and untrusting heart. God is stronger, brighter, and more powerful.
As Von and I ventured here and there, following the lies we noted during different psychic readings, I paused to rest. Von went ahead and I just sat. I closed my eyes and felt the warmth of the sun on my face while I listened to the birds chirping a "Spring is here" song all around me.
It was during this time of quiet that I heard it, or was it a feeling? Regardless of what you call it, I felt God's arms wrap around me and whisper "I love you Lisa, I never left you." I opened my eyes and it ended yet the warmth of the embrace remained. I called to Von, "Did you hear that?" She laughed and shook her head no.
I still remember that moment, about six months prior to a child telling me, "Mrs. Buske, you need Jesus." -- God prepared my heart to accept his invitation to church and eventually into the family of believers. God never left me, I left Him. Why do I share this with you today, so you know there is hope.
Hope isn't found in the darkness, it is found in the light of Jesus. May you only travel in the light because it makes the journey a lot easier. He is waiting for you to respond.
In the Light, this is only a clearing with trees and nothing more!
If you missed this morning's book signing at the Heidi Allen Remembrance Garden, it's not too late.
Lisa M Buske
P.O. Box 323