I love a time of reflection...Don't you? I love to look back and realize "Wow...I have learned something...I'm a better _____ than I was yesterday, last week, last year or even a decade ago!" We all should take time to reflect and recognize the growth we have made - or lack of.
I wish I could say "Wow...I always have a positive growth!" that isn't the truth though- there are times God points out an area or two (or three) that I've failed to show positive and fruitful growth. He lovingly and gently rebukes and guides me...
My son, do not despise the LORD's discipline
and do not resent his rebuke,
because the LORD disciplines those he loves,
as a father the son he delights in.
I encourage you to take time and reflect...Thankfully I am better writer than I was four years ago. And most importantly...thankfully God loves me enough to discipline me when I need it....I pray you see the discipline as an way to grow!