I wasn't going to blog this weekend because I think it's important to have this be a blog of encouragement, hope, inspiration, and uplifting reminders to us all. Yet a friend reminded me of an important fact yesterday, I am human. GASP!
Seriously though, I tend to distance myself when I feel overwhelmed so as not to let others down or cause concern. My Mom told me yesterday, with much love, "You've got this. You can't let the world get you down, we need you strong. You encourage and keep us going." I felt terrible with my response, "I'm tired. Overwhelmed. I don't have any fight left." And the flood gates of tears opened again and I became a puddle. Thankfully I was on the phone with my Mom so I hung up before the meltdown.
A friend came in to see how my afternoon was, while I'm thankful she stopped, she's probably wishing she'd kept walking. I was a pitiful sight. Melting down in the cubbies of a Kindergarten classroom. Good golly, what is my problem? It was my friend's listening ear, hug, and reminder that I'm human that helped me let it go and move forward. I thought I had it together but then as I talked with my daughter, the tears rolled again.
It was my daughter's response that taught me the greatest lesson yesterday. She said (something along this line), "Mom, it's okay. I'm so glad you are crying. You are always so strong and never break down. Let it out, it will be okay." and within moments, she was encouraging me with words I've shared with her in the past. Guess what, the teenager has been listening and watching. The part I missed in this process, I rarely let her see me broken.
The best part of this process, I woke up this morning refreshed and ready to conquer the world. My friend was right, letting go of the ick opens up room for the good. There are challenging days ahead yet with God leading the way, and me following Him...it's all good. Whatever you (I) go through, we will be stronger, more thankful, and able to find the positives. Remember, we all have our days.