Keeping it Real...Welcome! No matter how you found this, God knew you'd be here today. May you absorb the message He has for you. In 2011 I shared through my writing, today I've learned there is more to me than just writing. I have the energy and passion to share with others. Sometimes through Facebook live and others with my blog and most importantly, I've learned my passion to cook and bake is a vessel to share my writing and live presentations, while glorifying God in the process. I just needed to let go, and follow His lead.
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Our family is overwhelmed with the support, encouragement, and renewed hope for Heidi in the past week. The media reaches out for a statement or comment as they organize their stories. The first few days we were stunned and still processing this information, so we refrained. As the days progress, we waited in hopes there would be more to share. Almost a week later, we are waiting, just like you. My parents and I, want to make sure everyone knows how much we appreciate you. As the family checks in with each other throughout the day, we each share a message, kindness, or something we've experienced in the past week that lifted us up, just when we needed it. It's because of you, those hoping and praying for Heidi, we shared a message of hope this morning with the media. They've been patient, as have you. I could have emailed the statement to media yet we know many are waiting and watching, like we are, and not everyone is online. Instead of returning phone calls to each station or paper individually, it made sense to go to them (media) since they were all in one place. Mom and Dad remained home in case the phone rang while I took a few minutes to express this to you. We knew what we wanted to say yet know when standing in front of the cameras at the search location, it's better to have it in writing. Auntie M was ready to finish reading if I couldn't, I'm thankful she was there. I hope you all know how much we appreciate you. "I would like to take this opportunity to share with all of you on behalf of the family. Last week, with less than ten minute’s notice, we were thrust back to the emotional roller coaster of April 3, 1994. Our goal today is the same as it was then, to find Heidi and bring her home. We would like to thank the majority of media for respecting the family’s privacy and need for time to process all that is happening. We are reading and waiting along with the rest of you. Your patience and understanding is appreciated. A friend, whose sister has been missing nearly as long as Heidi wrote to say, “This looks like a fasten your seat belts and hang on kind of roller coaster". I read with tears and laughter at the same time. Tears because she was exactly right, and laughter because very few truly understand the depth and magnitude of events like this. It’s been less than a week since a reporter walked onto my parent’s steps to pour salt into an open wound and the hurt, grief, and pain of twenty years ago returned as we listened to the horrific words she shared. Within minutes from leaving my parents driveway, the first of many articles were published. We understand Heidi’s disappearance and case are news yet to us, this is more than a story, it’s our Heidi. I believe a vast majority of the community would agree, Heidi is more than a missing person poster or case number, she was a young, energetic, and loving person. Her smile captivated your heart the first time you met her. She remains missing and is forever my only sister, my parent’s youngest child, and family and friend to many. We don’t know what will become of this recent search or documents being filed at the court house. One thing we do know, we value and trust law enforcement, the judges, and jury who have dedicated countless hours to find Heidi and ensure justice. We appreciate the medical examiners, doctors, investigators, and those we may not realize that are determined to bring Heidi home with truth, integrity, and compassion. I’m not judge or jury, I’m merely Heidi’s sister…waiting to hear just like all of you. As we wait, we thank all of you, and those watching or reading. We know our grief, is your grief. We are grateful for the encouragement, support, and love you all have for Heidi and our family. We know Heidi was special and the outpouring of support, even twenty years later is evidence of this. As you pray for Heidi and us, know we are also thanking God for each of you and praying for you too – that we all have strength, hope, and peace as we all wait together. Time will tell, until then…There is always hope for Heidi! Thank you! CNY Central posted the above video on YouTube. Our family thanks you for your support, prayers, & encouragement. |
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TOP’s Tuesday is an opportunity to turn the focus on Heidi in a more personal way and update you on current happenings. For the past few years, this blog has focused more on my writing and speaking. Last Thursday, our journey, my journey, took a sharp turn.
One friend, whose sister is also missing, messaged to say, “This looks like a ‘fasten your seat belts and hang on’ kind of roller coaster”. You’ve heard me use the roller coaster analogy before as it pertains to the families’ journey as they wait when a loved one is missing. As I read my friend’s message, I smiled. This is someone who knows exactly how it feels and what we are going through, as she’s experienced this in her life too. She brought a smile to my face because it is a perfect description to past few day's events.
There are many news stories circulating via the Internet, television, radio, and in the print newspapers. What do you believe? I don’t know. The press continues to contact us in hopes of a statement or interview. We are grateful my aunt and uncle were on scene the first couple days, so my parents didn’t have to, and they kept us in the loop the entire day. This was a huge blessing and help.
As the family follows the progress, breaks, and stories closely, my parents opt to wait before doing interviews with the press. They have asked the entire family to wait alongside them until we have more information.
For today…we wait. Thank you for respecting our privacy.
One friend, whose sister is also missing, messaged to say, “This looks like a ‘fasten your seat belts and hang on’ kind of roller coaster”. You’ve heard me use the roller coaster analogy before as it pertains to the families’ journey as they wait when a loved one is missing. As I read my friend’s message, I smiled. This is someone who knows exactly how it feels and what we are going through, as she’s experienced this in her life too. She brought a smile to my face because it is a perfect description to past few day's events.
There are many news stories circulating via the Internet, television, radio, and in the print newspapers. What do you believe? I don’t know. The press continues to contact us in hopes of a statement or interview. We are grateful my aunt and uncle were on scene the first couple days, so my parents didn’t have to, and they kept us in the loop the entire day. This was a huge blessing and help.
As the family follows the progress, breaks, and stories closely, my parents opt to wait before doing interviews with the press. They have asked the entire family to wait alongside them until we have more information.
For today…we wait. Thank you for respecting our privacy.
Some of the things I'm choosing to be thankful for today... |  I'm thankful Auntie M and Unc went on behalf of my parents when the initial phone call came. I know this was difficult for them too. I'm thankful for God's working in this situation since day one. May He lead, guide, and provide the answers necessary to bring Heidi home. I'm thankful for the amazing community we live in that is enduring and experiencing this with us. We pray for you too. We wait and grieve together. I'm thankful for such wonderful friends. I'm thankful I wasn't stung worse than I was when the ground bees attacked yesterday, and thankful the doctor was able to provide a prescription to help with the pain and swelling. I'm thankful the Benadryl helped me sleep last night. I'm thankful for all of you and your prayers. I'm thankful to have a thankful heart in the midst of the storm. God reigns and is in control... |
He stilled the storm to a whisper;
the waves of the sea were hush.
Psalm 107:29
Share at least one thing you are thankful for as you wait...
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| | Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Romans 12:12 |
| Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord. Psalm 31:24 | |
| | Let love and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart. Then you will win favor and a good name in the sight of God and man. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; Proverbs 3:3-5 |
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine,
according to his power that is at work
within us, to him be glory in the church
and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.
Ephesians 3:20-21
according to his power that is at work
within us, to him be glory in the church
and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.
Ephesians 3:20-21
Thank you for remembering and hoping for Heidi with us!
  | Excerpt: Where's Heidi? One Sister's Journey Lisa M Buske "The warm spring breeze refreshes Ed and I as we walk the mile plus to attend the vigil. We held hands with moments of silence and intermittent conversation. |
“I’m out of here! This is my last vigil! First He takes Heidi and now He won’t even have someone pray for me. I hate Him.” My face red with anger and my voice getting louder, I start to walk home.
I left the vigil bitter and hurt. Excluded and separated from my parents and sister once again. I spewed the entire way home. Thank goodness no one came with me as a projectile emotional vomit to God left my mouth and heart the entire mile back home. I don’t want anything to do with God. I not only walked away from my family and the community that day, I turned my back and walked away from God..."
Today is different. Do you know what this difference is, well one of them anyway?
It's not losing my sister to abduction, she's still missing.
Instead of lonely and surrounded by a multitude of caring people,
I'm alone and comforted by seven times seventy.
In 1994, I ran as far, as fast, and privately as possibly...away from God.
Today, my choice of isolation isn't due to avoidance. In order to keep my eyes, mind, and heart focused on the One who never left me when I ran in the opposite direction twenty years ago, I'm taking the necessary time to process and work through all that is happening.
It took a couple decades but one valuable lesson I've learned, no one expects my parents, or me to have it "together". This was my greatest misconception. On the flip side, you don't need to witness the full impact either. So to keep this blog and journey as honest and real, as the blog has been since 2010. With much prayer and strength, my goal is to continue to post daily. You all hurt and wait, just like we, the family are. In God's strength and love...
I will not run away.
I will not live in fear.
I will not give up.
I'm a survivor...
Heidi remains missing and recent developments may or may not change this.
One thing remains true and constant and unchanging...God. This I know and trust.
It's not losing my sister to abduction, she's still missing.
Instead of lonely and surrounded by a multitude of caring people,
I'm alone and comforted by seven times seventy.
In 1994, I ran as far, as fast, and privately as possibly...away from God.
Today, my choice of isolation isn't due to avoidance. In order to keep my eyes, mind, and heart focused on the One who never left me when I ran in the opposite direction twenty years ago, I'm taking the necessary time to process and work through all that is happening.
It took a couple decades but one valuable lesson I've learned, no one expects my parents, or me to have it "together". This was my greatest misconception. On the flip side, you don't need to witness the full impact either. So to keep this blog and journey as honest and real, as the blog has been since 2010. With much prayer and strength, my goal is to continue to post daily. You all hurt and wait, just like we, the family are. In God's strength and love...
I will not run away.
I will not live in fear.
I will not give up.
I'm a survivor...
Heidi remains missing and recent developments may or may not change this.
One thing remains true and constant and unchanging...God. This I know and trust.
"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever."
Hebrews 13:8
No one knows what information or scenarios will play out in the days, weeks, and months to come BUT every step of the way...I'm resting in the shadow of His wings while we wait.
Waiting is something I know, Another lesson I've learned, there is no sense worrying about the unknown.
The delivery to our family, Heidi's friends, and the community was abrupt, blindsiding us all. A reporter on the steps for a "courtesy" visit ten minutes before going live on the Internet wasn't enough time. But, as I've thought about it, to wait longer probably would have created more anxiety as we waited for the "what" of his story.
We are sorry you had to, and are, enduring the pain, grief, and loss felt when we first lost Heidi alongside us. Yet, your encouragement and outpouring is a reminder of why we love our community so much, Heidi will always be remembered. She isn't just a case number, she is a beloved member of my family, your family, your circle of friends, your neighbor, and God's precious daughter.
We couldn't control the way we received this news on Thursday, BUT WE CAN control our response. So rather than panic and get upset, it's one more thing to wait for. One thing I know, we all are stronger than we give ourselves credit for, we've waited twenty plus years - so to wait a few days to see what the public defender files is possible.
Thank you for understanding my silence, I'm not hiding like I did the first time - I'm simply trying to run TO God first and avoid getting involved in conversations that could unintentionally cause hurt feelings or prevent others from discussing the hottest topic of conversation in our neck of the woods for the time being.
Waiting is something I know, Another lesson I've learned, there is no sense worrying about the unknown.
The delivery to our family, Heidi's friends, and the community was abrupt, blindsiding us all. A reporter on the steps for a "courtesy" visit ten minutes before going live on the Internet wasn't enough time. But, as I've thought about it, to wait longer probably would have created more anxiety as we waited for the "what" of his story.
We are sorry you had to, and are, enduring the pain, grief, and loss felt when we first lost Heidi alongside us. Yet, your encouragement and outpouring is a reminder of why we love our community so much, Heidi will always be remembered. She isn't just a case number, she is a beloved member of my family, your family, your circle of friends, your neighbor, and God's precious daughter.
We couldn't control the way we received this news on Thursday, BUT WE CAN control our response. So rather than panic and get upset, it's one more thing to wait for. One thing I know, we all are stronger than we give ourselves credit for, we've waited twenty plus years - so to wait a few days to see what the public defender files is possible.
Thank you for understanding my silence, I'm not hiding like I did the first time - I'm simply trying to run TO God first and avoid getting involved in conversations that could unintentionally cause hurt feelings or prevent others from discussing the hottest topic of conversation in our neck of the woods for the time being.
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Thank you all...we are blessed to have you praying, encouraging, and supporting Heidi, her family, friends, and community.
From us to you - we're praying for you too. We know we're not alone, may this make us all stronger and BRING HEIDI HOME!
 We are grateful for, and appreciate, the outpouring of support once again...Thank you! | “There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.” Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 NIV |
We join you in prayer and pray for you too ~ many feel the hurt, shock, and mix of emotions recent articles and information release.
May we all look up, seek God's face, and our prayers be answered.
Same today as 1994...prayers to bring Heidi home!
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We will never give up... |
A writer without words is the sister processing the news reports...
Prayers for Heidi....
From the entire family - Thank you!!
There are links on each photo too...
A bridge and sign dedicated to my sister, Heidi M Allen. Located on the back of our parents property in the town of New Haven, NY.
Last week's TOP's Tuesday blog came from keep within my heart and shared aspects of Heidi's kidnapping I tend to keep more private, yet it was a message I believe needed to be shared. Your response overwhelmed us, thank you so much. There were one-hundred-thirteen Facebook "likes" as of yesterday.
Many commented here on the blog, to Facebook, and on Twitter too. One person mentioned the idea to plant a tree or something to remember and honor Heidi. This is a great idea, so great, we started this in 1994, the very first year she disappeared.
My parents say their yard is a living tribute to the people they love. There are transplants from my grandparent's home. Trees planted at my parents as a birthday gift to Mags or I. Mom has different flower gardens on the property, each with its own name and memory behind its creation. We even have "friendship trees", we planted both with our foreign exchange daughter before she returned to France - one at my parents and one at our house.
I've shared some of these tributes in blogs over the years. But to highlight a few of the exhibits of love, hope, and remembrance for my sister, Heidi M Allen, read on.
Many commented here on the blog, to Facebook, and on Twitter too. One person mentioned the idea to plant a tree or something to remember and honor Heidi. This is a great idea, so great, we started this in 1994, the very first year she disappeared.
My parents say their yard is a living tribute to the people they love. There are transplants from my grandparent's home. Trees planted at my parents as a birthday gift to Mags or I. Mom has different flower gardens on the property, each with its own name and memory behind its creation. We even have "friendship trees", we planted both with our foreign exchange daughter before she returned to France - one at my parents and one at our house.
I've shared some of these tributes in blogs over the years. But to highlight a few of the exhibits of love, hope, and remembrance for my sister, Heidi M Allen, read on.
 | Each year we each save our Easter lilies to plant in the garden each Spring. A reminder there is hope and miracles waiting to blossom with each new day. Some are in my parent's garden, some in mine, and others up in the Heidi Remembrance Garden located at the intersection of State Route 104 and 104b, the last place Heidi was known to be alive. Something positive and beautiful in a location that could be dark and depressing. |
My parents, Ed, and I planted this red maple in 1994 as a young tree. In 1994 we lost Heidi. In keeping with family tradition, a tree was planted for her. Maples are strong with deep and enduring roots, similar attributes we need to survive while we wait.
"So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live your lives in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness.
See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the elemental spiritual forces of this world rather than on Christ." Colossians 2:6-8
"So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live your lives in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness.
See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the elemental spiritual forces of this world rather than on Christ." Colossians 2:6-8
  | This magnolia tree was planted in 1995, a year after Heidi's kidnapping. another illustration of strength and beauty. While it may appear a green bush this time of year, in the Spring...it's color and beauty will take your breath away. When this tree is at its peak for flowering, is the very time we are at our peak for evidence of hope. "The desert and the parched land will be glad;the wilderness will rejoice and blossom. Like the crocus, it will burst into bloom; it will rejoice greatly and shout for joy. The glory of Lebanon will be given to it, the splendor of Carmel and Sharon; they will see the glory of the Lord, the splendor of our God. Strengthen the feeble hands, steady the knees that give way; say to those with fearful hearts, “Be strong, do not fear; your God will come, he will come with vengeance; with divine retribution he will come to save you.” Isaiah 35:1-4 |
What type of tree, flower, or ? have you planted in memory of a loved one? Why did you choose this particular plant?
During the summer I often look through the various blogs in my "draft" folder. On average, there are usually twenty-five blogs here. What is in these drafts varies. Some are a photo or video, while others contain a Bible verse and reflection to build on.
Some are completed blogs for future use, like I have next year's 4th of July blog written and ready to post for 2015. Why? The inspiration for some blogs come during a celebration or event so when I return home I write it down for future use, so I don't forget the message God gave me to share with all of you.
I saw the title "Forever Friends" and couldn't decide what this might be, figured it was a picture of my daughter and one of her dogs. It was on the last page of the drafts so it's been saved for awhile.BUT, I was overwhelmed with a smile and feeling of love when I saw the photographs included in this draft. I'm to the right in the photo and the beautiful young woman standing next to me is Suzie. If you have read Where's Heidi? One Sister's Journey, you will recognize the name. Suzie was a dear high school friend of my sisters. After Heidi's abduction from the D & W Convenience Store, Suzie dedicated countless hours, days, weeks, and months to help in the search efforts to locate Heidi.
Suzie isn't the only friend who dedicated time to helping out yet she is one who was there nearly is much as I was, and we formed a special bond during this time. The photographs in today's blog were taken in 2012, the summer before Where's Heidi? One Sister's Journey released. Suzie and one of her daughters stopped for a visit and she blessed me with this "Forever Friends" Willow Tree for my collection. She and Heidi are forever friends, and one blessing from the tragic loss of my beautiful sister is the forever friendship I now have with Suzie and many of Heidi's other friends I now call friend too.
Beauty from Ashes, friendship born from tragedy. Thankful for the way God works in our lives
Some are completed blogs for future use, like I have next year's 4th of July blog written and ready to post for 2015. Why? The inspiration for some blogs come during a celebration or event so when I return home I write it down for future use, so I don't forget the message God gave me to share with all of you.
I saw the title "Forever Friends" and couldn't decide what this might be, figured it was a picture of my daughter and one of her dogs. It was on the last page of the drafts so it's been saved for awhile.BUT, I was overwhelmed with a smile and feeling of love when I saw the photographs included in this draft. I'm to the right in the photo and the beautiful young woman standing next to me is Suzie. If you have read Where's Heidi? One Sister's Journey, you will recognize the name. Suzie was a dear high school friend of my sisters. After Heidi's abduction from the D & W Convenience Store, Suzie dedicated countless hours, days, weeks, and months to help in the search efforts to locate Heidi.
Suzie isn't the only friend who dedicated time to helping out yet she is one who was there nearly is much as I was, and we formed a special bond during this time. The photographs in today's blog were taken in 2012, the summer before Where's Heidi? One Sister's Journey released. Suzie and one of her daughters stopped for a visit and she blessed me with this "Forever Friends" Willow Tree for my collection. She and Heidi are forever friends, and one blessing from the tragic loss of my beautiful sister is the forever friendship I now have with Suzie and many of Heidi's other friends I now call friend too.
Beauty from Ashes, friendship born from tragedy. Thankful for the way God works in our lives
"To all who mourn in Israel, he will give a crown of beauty for ashes,
a joyous blessing instead of mourning, festive praise instead of despair. In their righteousness,
they will be like great oaks that the LORD has planted for his own glory."
Isaiah 61:3
Who is your forever friend? Why are you thankful for him/her?
My daughter has enjoyed participating in the Oswego Children's Theater productions since she was probably eight or nine years old. This summer she had a difficult decision to make because as she matures and prepares for college and being on her own, she started to work. When the summer musical was announced, "Shrek: The Musical", she planned to audition but didn't want to request the amount of days off necessary to practice and then perform two weekends in July. We are so proud of her, it wasn't an easy decision to make yet one she has peace with.
Last night we had the opportunity to watch the show. It is FABULOUS! Our daughter had a little sadness as she watched from the audience, instead of performing on the stage. Once the show was over, she scooted to the front to visit with her theater friends and catch up. It was as if she hadn't missed the show. Their smiles and laughter made me smile, her too.
This winter they performed "Alky/Juvie" for the Teen Production and went to competition for it. This summer, they have been invited to a theater camp and competition because of their stellar performance earlier in the year. She once again faced a difficult decision, did she agree to join her buds and see this performance through to completion or decline because of work commitments. She chose to see this one through to the end. We are once again, very proud of her. Before she let the director know, she checked with her employer first, she is becoming a responsible and fine young woman, we couldn't be prouder.
If you are looking for something fun to do with the family this weekend, head to New Haven, New York for the Oswego Children's Theater's summer musical, "Shrek". You will not be disappointed. This is a see more than once play in order to catch all that is going on. The costumes, make-up, costume and make-up changes, and energy on stage were amazing. We have great talent in Oswego County, check it out.
Last night we had the opportunity to watch the show. It is FABULOUS! Our daughter had a little sadness as she watched from the audience, instead of performing on the stage. Once the show was over, she scooted to the front to visit with her theater friends and catch up. It was as if she hadn't missed the show. Their smiles and laughter made me smile, her too.
This winter they performed "Alky/Juvie" for the Teen Production and went to competition for it. This summer, they have been invited to a theater camp and competition because of their stellar performance earlier in the year. She once again faced a difficult decision, did she agree to join her buds and see this performance through to completion or decline because of work commitments. She chose to see this one through to the end. We are once again, very proud of her. Before she let the director know, she checked with her employer first, she is becoming a responsible and fine young woman, we couldn't be prouder.
If you are looking for something fun to do with the family this weekend, head to New Haven, New York for the Oswego Children's Theater's summer musical, "Shrek". You will not be disappointed. This is a see more than once play in order to catch all that is going on. The costumes, make-up, costume and make-up changes, and energy on stage were amazing. We have great talent in Oswego County, check it out.
TODAY AT 2 P.M. & 7:30 P.M.
SUNDAY AT 2 P.M.
What is one positive of a community theater group?
Why do you think it's important to support these organizations?
Why do you complain, Jacob?
Why do you say, Israel,
“My way is hidden from the Lord;
my cause is disregarded by my God”?
Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
Isaiah 40:27-28
To be honest with you, when I hear this verse of Scripture, I always think of the song. A song played and/or sung at funerals, memorial services, and as a tribute to a lost loved one. It wasn't until a friend lost her brother to a snowmobile accident that the song, "On Eagle's Wings" by Eric Clapton held a different meaning in my heart. Each time I heard it, I thought of her, and the loss her family endured that day and the years to follow.
But there is so much more to this than a beautiful song. This song is a product of the truths written in the bible, in the book of Isaiah. I'm only sharing the last five verses yet I think these are enough to leave you thinking, and thankful. Do you complain? Jacob complained too, and he's Jacob, so rather than beat ourselves (yes, I included myself in this) for complaining, read the words written. They ignite a reflective thought, don't you agree?
"Do you not know? Have you not heard?" Ouch, we know the truth, yet we grumble and complain, rather than accepting and looking up.
But there is so much more to this than a beautiful song. This song is a product of the truths written in the bible, in the book of Isaiah. I'm only sharing the last five verses yet I think these are enough to leave you thinking, and thankful. Do you complain? Jacob complained too, and he's Jacob, so rather than beat ourselves (yes, I included myself in this) for complaining, read the words written. They ignite a reflective thought, don't you agree?
"Do you not know? Have you not heard?" Ouch, we know the truth, yet we grumble and complain, rather than accepting and looking up.
He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
Isaiah 40:29-31a
Do you need strength? I now I do, and I need it daily. Maybe I'm a bigger mess than you but if it wasn't for the strength of the Lord, I don't think I could survive the difficult days or celebrate the wonderful ones with the same energy and excitement. Do you get tired? Ever felt weary? Do you ever stumble, fall, or make a mistake (or two)? If so, pay attention to the next part of this piece of truth written in the Bible...
If you hope in the Lord, your strength is renewed!
If you hope in the Lord, your strength is renewed!
Don't shuffle, drag your feet, or walk in your own strength. Instead, lift your eyes, heart, and arms to God. Then, we will soar like we've never experienced. Life will still happen, but our ability to get through and endure are now easier to see. Keep moving forward.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
Isaiah 40:31b
When you are tired and weary,
how do you relax and renew your strength?
I looked at the Biblical aspect but now it's time to apply it to life, Finish this statement...
"When I'm tired, I..."
| Awhile back I baked a cake for our nephews birthday. I mixed the cake batters and poured them into the extra large pan. I had a little left that I thought, "I really shouldn't put this in, but it's not enough for even a small cake? I don't want to throw it out. This little bit won't make a big difference, right?" Well, have you predicted the outcome yet? Of course, as the cake baked and the house filled with the aroma of delicious chocolate and vanilla...another smell started to seep into the air. At first, it was mild and then it intensified. Yes, the batter started to bake over the edges and to the bottom of the oven. As it baked and baked on the base, it started to overcook, burn, and I'm ashamed to admit...start to flame. | 
Yes, baby flames in the over! Oh boy. It wasn't a 911 call, just enough to require turning off the oven, removing the cake, and closing the door. Once oxygen was removed from the equation, nothing but smoke remained. Phew... |
| As I thought about the mess I had to clean once the oven cooled down, a life lesson infiltrated my brain. How many times in my life had I put just a little more of something in my life, thinking, a little bit won't hurt me. Only to end up getting burned in the end. Can you relate? Granted, my oven looked nothing like the one in today's blog but sometimes our life feels and looks like the mess illustrated here. A little more cake batter, made a huge difference. Then it created an even bigger mess to clean up and a modification to my evening plans - since I still had a cake to bake, cool, and decorate for the following day's party. Was it worth including the extra batter? |
No it wasn't. What are some areas in your life that you've done, just a little bit more, or possibly said just one more thing, that created a bigger mess and bit of trouble than you ever planned or expected? I don't think there is anyone who can claim they are free from making a mistake, poor judgement call, or misjudging a proper amount of ? in a situation. The first step is to recognize we aren't perfect.
But guess what, we were designed to be perfect - we are designed to be the best "?" we can be. God formed me and created me to be the best Lisa Allen Buske I could be in His name, strength, and love. You are the only one to do, learn, and be you. No one else can take your place or do it better. We are not gifted like the person next to us because we weren't born to be them. What does this have to do with burnt cake batter? A lot, because we are imperfect, we will make mistakes, and sometimes these make a mess.
A mess that Jesus saved us from.
But guess what, we were designed to be perfect - we are designed to be the best "?" we can be. God formed me and created me to be the best Lisa Allen Buske I could be in His name, strength, and love. You are the only one to do, learn, and be you. No one else can take your place or do it better. We are not gifted like the person next to us because we weren't born to be them. What does this have to do with burnt cake batter? A lot, because we are imperfect, we will make mistakes, and sometimes these make a mess.
A mess that Jesus saved us from.
| Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation The old has gone, the new is here! 2 Corinthians 5:17 NIV | 
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| Our pastor encourages us to not just believe in Jesus or God but to live Jesus in all we say, think, and do. When we do this, life takes a different venue and direction when the batter overflows, or when the cake finishes baking and turns out beautifully. In God's eyes, we are all beautiful. I make mistakes. I am not perfect. I will mess up again. I apologize. I extend forgiveness and receive it. I am human...but a new one ~ trying the best I can! |
Has your cake batter every spilled over and started a fire?
What about your own actions or words?
Was there a lesson learned? Will you share in a comment below?
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A $20 donation between July 1st - July 28th
might provide the hope, encouragement,
and inspiration a sick child and his/her
family needs at the very moment
their gift of love arrives.
Do you remember this past December when I made my first solo trip as an inspirational speaker? In spite of ice, snow, and wind, I boarded the plane in time to share with families of the missing from the San Antonio, Texas area. In addition to Crystal, the new director, and Heidi Seeman's family, I've stayed in contact with some of the families I met thanks to social media. Yesterday as my news feed updated, I saw the picture of this adorable teddy bear on the center's page. Once I read what they are doing with this bear, I messaged Crystal and asked if I could share with all of you.
As summer vacation Bible School (VBS) and other outreaches occur across the country, I thought this might be a mission your church or organization would like to support. You might not have children or be involved with an organization looking to make a donation, you could always donate as a family or individual too. The Heidi Search Center received their shipment of teddy bears, now they need to raise the money to start gifting them to sick.
A $20 donation will deliver one bear to a child in need of some love to snuggle as they fight, heal, and move forward due to cancer, blood disorder, or sadly...in their last days. Your $20 donation might make create the smile that is the last memory a mom or dad has of their child, or better yet, might be catalyst to ignite the energy to keep fighting and win,
As summer vacation Bible School (VBS) and other outreaches occur across the country, I thought this might be a mission your church or organization would like to support. You might not have children or be involved with an organization looking to make a donation, you could always donate as a family or individual too. The Heidi Search Center received their shipment of teddy bears, now they need to raise the money to start gifting them to sick.
A $20 donation will deliver one bear to a child in need of some love to snuggle as they fight, heal, and move forward due to cancer, blood disorder, or sadly...in their last days. Your $20 donation might make create the smile that is the last memory a mom or dad has of their child, or better yet, might be catalyst to ignite the energy to keep fighting and win,
"Your gift will help children with cancer/blood disorders and
kids on hospice care with the “Escape to Fun” program.
It’s not just an animal; it’s about the love that’s behind it.
It means more than you’ll ever know to have someone
give a child on hospice a thoughtful gift."
kids on hospice care with the “Escape to Fun” program.
It’s not just an animal; it’s about the love that’s behind it.
It means more than you’ll ever know to have someone
give a child on hospice a thoughtful gift."
  | The bears are a part of Heidi's Helping Hand a program to give back to our community for everything they have pour into our center and as a way to keep Heidi's memory alive. Avon learned of this initiative and came along side The Heidi Search Center so more children will receive bears. "This year we have chosen Jaxon Frog Ironically. after we chose this worthwhile organization to support, I learned that Heidi (Seeman) was a lover of Frogs and stuffed animals, so the two just seemed fitting." Crystal Calloway, Center Director |
To Donate
Contact Crystal Calloway
The Heidi Search Center
San Antonio, Texas 4115
Naco Perrin Blvd., San Antonio, TX 78217
or call 210-650-0428
Contact Crystal Calloway
The Heidi Search Center
San Antonio, Texas 4115
Naco Perrin Blvd., San Antonio, TX 78217
or call 210-650-0428
Mission Statement:
Heidi Search Center, Inc. serves as a resource for families and communities by providing educational programs, referral, advocacy, and assisting law enforcement in search efforts for missing children and adults in San Antonio, Texas and beyond.
Can you help a child in need? They aren't "lost" per say, yet they need hope and a reason to keep fighting...your bear might be it!
Thank you in advance...
Earlier in the year we celebrated the twentieth anniversary of my sister's kidnapping. Rather than hiding in our homes or leaving town, our family spent the afternoon and evening together surrounded by friends and our community. It was a powerful time of hope, encouragement, inspiration, and love. Heidi is NEVER forgotten, this was a common statement. We are so thankful for all of you and how you remember Heidi.
 | One family placed an orange ribbon on their tree in April 1994. Each Easter/April third and September/Heidi's birthday, they take down the weather-tattered symbol of Hope for Heidi and freshen it up with a new one. A reminder to all traveling Route 1, Heidi is always in our hearts and this community will NEVER give up. Hope displayed... (click on photo to read more about ribbon) |
An aspect of the 20th Anniversary of Heidi's kidnapping I didn't share about was the amount of information shared with me, my family, and law enforcement in the weeks leading up to April 3, 2014. There were even those that attended the anniversary celebration who came to offer their memories and tips directly to the family.
A fact that still gives me creeps, there may have even been someone involved with her disappearance and death in attendance at the gathering too. I try not to dwell on this yet it is a fact, most criminals revisit the crime scene or immerse themselves in the heart of the grief after the crime. Sadly, this is a proven statistic, one that required much prayer in April. The best thing I did, was plan this gathering of hope for Heidi yet it also opened myself up to many comments, private messages, notes, and moments of doubt and fear.
The only thing to get me through this time, God. He is the only One who could see and know all. My prayer, if someone attended the gathering and was involved in her disappearance and murder ~ I prayed they would be so moved by the love and hope, they would reveal a truth they had to bring Heidi home.
A fact that still gives me creeps, there may have even been someone involved with her disappearance and death in attendance at the gathering too. I try not to dwell on this yet it is a fact, most criminals revisit the crime scene or immerse themselves in the heart of the grief after the crime. Sadly, this is a proven statistic, one that required much prayer in April. The best thing I did, was plan this gathering of hope for Heidi yet it also opened myself up to many comments, private messages, notes, and moments of doubt and fear.
The only thing to get me through this time, God. He is the only One who could see and know all. My prayer, if someone attended the gathering and was involved in her disappearance and murder ~ I prayed they would be so moved by the love and hope, they would reveal a truth they had to bring Heidi home.
| We, the family, are thankful for those who come forward to share any and all information they have from April 3, 1994. Twenty years later, people still remember important times, details, and truths. More importantly, there are individuals who know where Heidi is and have the control to bring Heidi home ~ returning her to the family, friends, and community still grieving her loss twenty years later. Are you one holding the missing piece? |  |
There are others who have information they might not share because the don't think it's important yet in truth, your piece of information might be the missing puzzle piece law enforcement needs to break the case and find Heidi. Not everything is public knowledge for a reason, Heidi is still missing, so this case is open and active, not cold and closed.
There are some who don't trust the Oswego County Sheriff's Department. I will continue to advocate and support them and we, my parents, Ed, Mary, and I and the rest of our family are grateful for their dedication to Heidi's case and keeping her cold case from growing cold, buried, and forgotten.
As much as we trust them, we also know there are many who do not and there isn't anything I can say to change your mind BUT if you know something, and don't trust them, contact the FBI or the National Center for Missing and Exploited Children. Did you now the FBI was involved from day one? Our local law enforcement welcomed help from others to maintain integrity in the case and to find Heidi as quick as possible while building a case to convict the guilty and restore safety and comfort to our community.
Be sure to list Heidi's NCMEC case number, 1157260, when contacting the FBI, NCMEC, the State Police, or whoever you choose to give your important and life changing tip.
There are some who don't trust the Oswego County Sheriff's Department. I will continue to advocate and support them and we, my parents, Ed, Mary, and I and the rest of our family are grateful for their dedication to Heidi's case and keeping her cold case from growing cold, buried, and forgotten.
As much as we trust them, we also know there are many who do not and there isn't anything I can say to change your mind BUT if you know something, and don't trust them, contact the FBI or the National Center for Missing and Exploited Children. Did you now the FBI was involved from day one? Our local law enforcement welcomed help from others to maintain integrity in the case and to find Heidi as quick as possible while building a case to convict the guilty and restore safety and comfort to our community.
Be sure to list Heidi's NCMEC case number, 1157260, when contacting the FBI, NCMEC, the State Police, or whoever you choose to give your important and life changing tip.
 | In addition to contacting law enforcement, you can also contact the family directly. I've received private messages via Facebook and even emails, lbuskewriter@aol.com. Each tip and tidbit of information given to me is passed along and followed up on by law enforcement. We never disvalue any information given to us, because you might be the one God uses to bring Heidi home and start the next part of our journey, life after discovery. |
Do you have information about Heidi M Allen's disappearance? Share it. Some give their information to the media if this is the only way you feel confident your tip will be heard. My caution to you, be careful what and who you trust your information with.
Not all journalists, investigative reporters, and media are driven by the hope of returning a missing girl to her family...some are simply striving for the front page and leave the family and law enforcement out of the investigation. As the sister to one of America's missing, this breaks my heart, what if this information, added to the facts within case files breaks the case but because it's not shared...the case remains open and Heidi remains missing?
The family's goal will never change, we want to find Heidi. In order to do this, we need a team mentality. There is no "I" in team. To the individual upsetting friends and family in hopes of breaking the case by himself, I hope you do. We would reap the greatest reward, to know where my sweet sister, Heidi M Allen, is. You might receive a prize for writing
Sheriff Todd vows to find Heidi and do everything in his power to return her for a proper burial before he retires, he can't do this without your help. You can trust him, call him directly if this makes you more comfortable, he will listen and investigate. It's personal, not a case.
For those providing tips, information, and statements to law enforcement, thank you for helping to bring Heidi home...she is more than a missing person poster, Heidi M Allen, was a brilliant, energetic, and devoted daughter, sister, granddaughter, cousin, friend, and would have been and even better aunt.
Not all journalists, investigative reporters, and media are driven by the hope of returning a missing girl to her family...some are simply striving for the front page and leave the family and law enforcement out of the investigation. As the sister to one of America's missing, this breaks my heart, what if this information, added to the facts within case files breaks the case but because it's not shared...the case remains open and Heidi remains missing?
The family's goal will never change, we want to find Heidi. In order to do this, we need a team mentality. There is no "I" in team. To the individual upsetting friends and family in hopes of breaking the case by himself, I hope you do. We would reap the greatest reward, to know where my sweet sister, Heidi M Allen, is. You might receive a prize for writing
Sheriff Todd vows to find Heidi and do everything in his power to return her for a proper burial before he retires, he can't do this without your help. You can trust him, call him directly if this makes you more comfortable, he will listen and investigate. It's personal, not a case.
For those providing tips, information, and statements to law enforcement, thank you for helping to bring Heidi home...she is more than a missing person poster, Heidi M Allen, was a brilliant, energetic, and devoted daughter, sister, granddaughter, cousin, friend, and would have been and even better aunt.
What do you remember about April 3, 1994 or possibly the days to follow?
Did you see something?
Hear something?
Have you confided in a friend?
Did they encourage you to tell law enforcement?
What's holding you back?
What if...
What if Heidi was your sister?
Would you want someone to keep the missing piece or add it to the puzzle?
Did you see something?
Hear something?
Have you confided in a friend?
Did they encourage you to tell law enforcement?
What's holding you back?
What if...
What if Heidi was your sister?
Would you want someone to keep the missing piece or add it to the puzzle?
"The goal was, is, and ALWAYS will be...TO FIND HEIDI"
and you can quote the family on this one...
National Farmers' Market Week proclamation
Oswego County Legislators meeting
Last year I started to attend the New Haven Town's Farmer's Market on Monday afternoons/evenings. I met a lot of people and enjoyed the time spent with others from our town and visitors passing through.
This year, there is double the vendors with a greater variety of items for sale. Last week a young lady joined the market, she makes tu-tus - they are super cute. (note: She will not be here tonight due to a scheduling conflict but returns next week) This week, a current vendor, Terri Groh, author, crafter, and now baker...will have fresh baked breads and homemade jams. While you enjoy a cool breeze, time outside, or at work - Terri's home is heated to the brink as she bakes the bread this afternoon. Yum!
What else can you get at the New Haven Farmers' Market?
*jewelry
*dog treats/snacks (homemade and I believe she has an organic recipe too, I think)
*FRESH produce (a couple different vendors)
*hot dogs (so you can get dinner)
*books written by local authors (Lisa M Buske, Terri Groh)
*plastic canvas creations of all kinds
*handmade (all natural) soaps
*aprons, hand bags, and other hand sewn items
*Young Living Essential Oils
*hand crafted wooden plaques & signs (she will also make them to order, bring your picture/idea with you when you come, this is my Mom and Dad's mode of relaxation)
*hand-made tu-tu's
*looking for a photographer? (ask at the tu-tu tent to see her portfolio books)
In addition, each week, there is usually someone there just for the week too. We are located right on State Route 104, it doesn't require you to get off the beaten path either. Simply pull to the side, stop and get your goodies, and return back on the road to your destination.
Last week, I had the honor of joining Debra Allen at the Oswego County Legislature meeting to receive the "National Farmers' Market Week" proclamation for our town of New Haven. I learned while there, farmers' markets happen all but one day of the week in Oswego County. If I get a list, I'll include them in a future Monday blog.
Stop by and say "Hi!" ~ we look forward to seeing you. I try to post pictures on my Facebook page each week too so you can see what is available at the market. See you on Monday!
This year, there is double the vendors with a greater variety of items for sale. Last week a young lady joined the market, she makes tu-tus - they are super cute. (note: She will not be here tonight due to a scheduling conflict but returns next week) This week, a current vendor, Terri Groh, author, crafter, and now baker...will have fresh baked breads and homemade jams. While you enjoy a cool breeze, time outside, or at work - Terri's home is heated to the brink as she bakes the bread this afternoon. Yum!
What else can you get at the New Haven Farmers' Market?
*jewelry
*dog treats/snacks (homemade and I believe she has an organic recipe too, I think)
*FRESH produce (a couple different vendors)
*hot dogs (so you can get dinner)
*books written by local authors (Lisa M Buske, Terri Groh)
*plastic canvas creations of all kinds
*handmade (all natural) soaps
*aprons, hand bags, and other hand sewn items
*Young Living Essential Oils
*hand crafted wooden plaques & signs (she will also make them to order, bring your picture/idea with you when you come, this is my Mom and Dad's mode of relaxation)
*hand-made tu-tu's
*looking for a photographer? (ask at the tu-tu tent to see her portfolio books)
In addition, each week, there is usually someone there just for the week too. We are located right on State Route 104, it doesn't require you to get off the beaten path either. Simply pull to the side, stop and get your goodies, and return back on the road to your destination.
Last week, I had the honor of joining Debra Allen at the Oswego County Legislature meeting to receive the "National Farmers' Market Week" proclamation for our town of New Haven. I learned while there, farmers' markets happen all but one day of the week in Oswego County. If I get a list, I'll include them in a future Monday blog.
Stop by and say "Hi!" ~ we look forward to seeing you. I try to post pictures on my Facebook page each week too so you can see what is available at the market. See you on Monday!
| New Haven Farmers' Market Mondays 3 p.m. - 6 p.m. New Haven Town Hall 4279 State Route 104 THIS WEEK - HOMEMADE BREADS & JAMS! August 4th is New Haven's Celebratory Market with special guests and things to do for the kiddos | 
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Is there a Farmers' Market in your town/city?
Post the day and time below in a comment to let others know of this great opportunity to support local farmers, crafters, bakers, authors, and more. Thank you in advance.
 https://www.facebook.com/FortOntario | Yesterday afternoon I had the opportunity to visit beautiful Fort Ontario after joining town clerk at the legislative council's meeting. I'll post about that on Monday, for today, I want to share about this nugget of history and fun in my back yard, well, less than thirty minutes anyway by car. We had a fun day taking photographs and learning new things about the fort itself, war history, and even tidbits about the city of Oswego itself, as it relates to the Fort. We asked questions, they answered in detail and with enthusiasm. Many smiles and photographs filled our day. |
We didn't want to keep this treasure to ourselves so we're sharing more information about the Fort, upcoming events, prices, and hours in this blog. I don't get anything for this, unless you want to count the joy of knowing another family might spend a day making memories while absorbing some of our American history in Oswego County. I hope this helps and saves you time in your research - there are links to the Facebook page and Website too.
| We walked through each building, reading some of the great information displayed but mostly, taking photographs. Two hours later, we left with still more to read the next time we visit. In addition to the daily offerings, there are special events and reenactments. Visit the Friends of the Fort website: http://www.fortontario.com/ Like their Facebook page too: https://www.facebook.com/FortOntario |  |
 Admission: $4 Adults $3 Seniors/Students $2 per person, group - adults $1 per person, group - students Children 12 and under Free Summer Happenings July 6 INDEPENDENCE DAY FIREWORKS July 26-27 HARBORFEST August 2 PLAY - THE GREAT ROPE August 13 LECTURE - CIVIL WAR August 16-17 CIVIL WAR ENCAMPMENT August 27 LECTURE: FORT ONTARIO WEATHER TOWER | Hours of Operation 2014 Season 7/1 - 9/1: Mondays - Saturdays, 10 am - 4:30 pm Sundays, 12 pm - 4:30 pm 9/3 - 10/12: Wednesdays - Saturdays, 10 am - 4:30 pm Sundays, 12 pm - 4:30 pm (Closed Monday & Tuesday) Open Monday holidays during the season. See more at: http://nysparks.com/historic-sites/20/hours-of-operation.aspx#sthash.e2Fw6zWc.dpuf For more information: |
Have you ever visited Historic Fort Ontario?
Will you share a memory below?
 "Do not change yourselves to be like the people of this world, but be changed within by a new way of thinking Then you will be able to decide what God wants for you; you will know what is good and pleasing to him and what is perfect." Romans 12:12 | Have you ever thought about this phrase, "Fight Like a Girl" and what it means? As a child, better yet tween and teen, if the neighborhood boys said, "You throw like a girl." or "You run like a girl.", I got very upset and hurt. Why did I let their comments get to me? Silly, right? I don't think so. I was more of the tom-boy of a girl in my youth. I spent more time riding my blue BMX bicycle and trudging through the creek with the boys than I did laying in the sun with my female friends. Even at a young age I found laying around to absorb sun to be a waste of time. Of course, as most teen girls will agree, I had my phase of sun tanning and using Sun-In to lighten (bleach, lol) my hair. BUT most of my youth was spent riding my bicycle, hiking, swimming, and doing...active and keeping up with the boys. So if I was spending the majority of my time doing the "boyish" type activities, why did I let their words effect me? It wasn't any desire to be a boy yet I wanted to be considered an equal, not the weaker. |
As an adult I look back and think of the countless, wasted, and silly tears and overflows of emotion spent dwelling on "being a girl". Good golly, God designed me to be a girl so I should embrace this. I wish this realization hit me when I was a child but I think in the late seventies & early eighties, this was the mentality.
Now to discuss the root and inspiration for this blog, "personal hygiene products", "sanitary napkins", or whatever your Momma called them to you. How many people remember the terrible, long, and embarrassing commercials for female products that came on when your Father, parents, younger siblings, or friends were sitting in the living room watching a family show? Come on, did your shoulders tense? Did your head shake? Did you just bust out laughing? I'm sure you had some response.
These commercials were my nemesis as a teen, as if figuring out who I was wasn't difficult enough, I have to see torpedo pads on the television screen absorbing blue liquid, seriously? Some of you are laughing because I obviously have post sanitary napkin stress disorder. But really, what if we had a commercial like the one below to advertise the same products. This is the commercial of this day and age, check it out and then join me for the rest of the blog. If you don't watch this short commercial, you'll miss the point.
Now to discuss the root and inspiration for this blog, "personal hygiene products", "sanitary napkins", or whatever your Momma called them to you. How many people remember the terrible, long, and embarrassing commercials for female products that came on when your Father, parents, younger siblings, or friends were sitting in the living room watching a family show? Come on, did your shoulders tense? Did your head shake? Did you just bust out laughing? I'm sure you had some response.
These commercials were my nemesis as a teen, as if figuring out who I was wasn't difficult enough, I have to see torpedo pads on the television screen absorbing blue liquid, seriously? Some of you are laughing because I obviously have post sanitary napkin stress disorder. But really, what if we had a commercial like the one below to advertise the same products. This is the commercial of this day and age, check it out and then join me for the rest of the blog. If you don't watch this short commercial, you'll miss the point.
"Your heart will be where your treasure is...
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
Matthew 6:21; Psalm 139: 13 &14
First of all, this commercial inspires me and encourages me, and young girls to embrace being a girl and the best they can be. Do you know who shared this commercial with me the first time? My teen daughter! Rather than being ashamed or discouraged for being female, she recognizes the blessing and gift her design is.
May we remember the very little girls who gave it all while we are able, imagine all we could accomplish...it ends with "Why can't 'run like a girl' also mean win the race?"
May we remember the very little girls who gave it all while we are able, imagine all we could accomplish...it ends with "Why can't 'run like a girl' also mean win the race?"
Don't you realize that in a race everyone runs,
but only one person gets the prize? So run to win!
1 Corinthians 9:24
This quote and Bible verse transitions me to another fight, a "fight like a girl" that exemplifies this thinking. If you or a loved one has battled breast cancer, your perception of this phrase is strength, endurance, perseverance, and love. Let's start today to "fight like a girl" in everything we do ~ with these same amazing qualities while we can enjoy and live life to the fullest. Rather than bury them as we get older or wait until the fight of our life - live each day as a girl...if for no other reason than God made you one and you should be proud!
Share this with the girls in your life who might need the reminder..
We are girls and proud of it! Share a thought or two below.
| Barbara Sullivan's son, Brian, has been missing seven years as of yesterday, from the Rochester area. If you recognize Brian or have information, contact the family. I read the following poem on Barbara's Facebook page today and want to share it with all of you. The author is unknown, yet its illustration is comforting. Prayers and hope for Brian and his family during this difficult anniversary week. The families of the missing NEVER GIVE UP HOPE! At birth we boarded the train and met our parents, and we believe they will always travel at our side. However, at some station our parents will step down from the train, leaving us on this journey alone. As time goes by, other people will board the train; and they will be significant - i.e. our siblings, friends, children, and even the love of your life. Many will step down and leave a permanent vacuum. Others will go so unnoticed that we don't realize that they vacated their seats. This train ride will be full of joy, sorrow, fantasy, expectations, hellos, goodbyes, and farewells. Success consists of having a good relationship with all passengers requiring that we give the best of ourselves. The mystery to everyone is: We do not know at which station we ourselves will step down. So we must live in the best way, love, forgive, and offer the best of who we are. It is important to do this because when the time comes for us to step down and leave our seat empty we should leave behind beautiful memories for those who will continue to travel on the train. I wish you a joyful journey on the train of life. Reap success and give lots of love. Lastly, I thank you for being one of the passengers on my train. ~ Author unknown ~ |   Photos taken by Katie Towner - used with her permission. Click on any photo for a direct link to the Facebook page or Website for more information about Brian's disappearance and his family's plea.    |
Feel free to leave words of encouragement for Brian's family and friends during this difficult week...Thank you in advance!
| Yesterday was a busy and different day than originally planned BUT we had fun and there was much laughter, and exercise. To celebrate the release of my first children's book, YOU are a Rainbow, I planned a celebration at the local farmer's market. Why a market? For a couple reasons. First, I'm there on Monday afternoons from 3 p.m. - 6 p.m. anyway, and two... why not? The way I saw it, in addition to sharing my new book, it would also get the word out about our small town's cute market, located on State Route 104 in the heart of New Haven. One thing none of us planned on was the severe thunderstorm warnings and watches for the afternoon.  |  The threat of rain and high winds kept half the vendors home, and our usual flow of people. Life is about choices, so those of us at the market decided to enjoy the cool breeze and become a team to hold the tents down when the large gust came through. We kept looking for a rainbow so we could take pictures but it didn't rain hard enough, which is probably a good thing. Since the announcement of this book, and then yesterday's release chatter on social media, there have more asking, "So what is your children's book about Lisa?" Yesterday's blog shared a little and today, I'll go a little deeper. |
The inspiration behind the book, a great group of kiddos who each modeled at least one or more of the characteristics listed in the book throughout our year together. But what is the book about? It's about spending time with your child and/or the children in your circle of life. This book is about investing time to slow down and read with, and to, those hungry to listen and learn. What You are a Rainbow lacks in plot and story line, it makes up for with conversation starters and compliments. I included a sample page in yesterday's blog to illustrate how the acronym unfolds. Seven pages, seven colors of the rainbow, and seventy-seven positive characteristics to share with your children. There might be a little hidden fun too.
A Closer Look at the Process from Idea to Book...
Step One:
Mary and I spent time taking photographs of different flowers fitting in the ROYGBIV color pattern. While enjoying walks, driving around, and spending time together...we looked for just the right color and flower for each page.
We took nearly 80 photographs, of different flowers, with different angles and lighting. Once home, I downloaded the pictures so we could view them on a larger screen. Some had us return to the same flower for a different angle or different lighting to capture what I saw in my head. Mags helped me narrow it down to two of each color and then I selected the flower of choice for each page.
This collage of the photographs, taken by Mary Buske, represent the main photos I used as a visual aid to sketch and paint each flower used in the book. Thanks Mags.
Mary and I spent time taking photographs of different flowers fitting in the ROYGBIV color pattern. While enjoying walks, driving around, and spending time together...we looked for just the right color and flower for each page.
We took nearly 80 photographs, of different flowers, with different angles and lighting. Once home, I downloaded the pictures so we could view them on a larger screen. Some had us return to the same flower for a different angle or different lighting to capture what I saw in my head. Mags helped me narrow it down to two of each color and then I selected the flower of choice for each page.
This collage of the photographs, taken by Mary Buske, represent the main photos I used as a visual aid to sketch and paint each flower used in the book. Thanks Mags.
Step Two:
I emailed the photographs to my Kindle Fire so I could work on the sketches during my breaks, while sitting at my parents, or wherever I might be. A benefit of bringing them with me via the Kindle Fire, was the ability to re-size the photo for a closer look.
With the sketches complete, it was time to start painting. This process required more time than I thought. I have a new appreciation for painting and the artists that create them using water colors. I never thought it would be easy but I hadn't expected the necessary time and variety of strokes and techniques. I learned so much.
Supplies: The trip to the store proved to be interesting because I've only seen water colors in the tray we use in the elementary school. It was amazing to see the tubes of water color. I picked up the starter kit, water color paint brushes, a basic $.99 paint tray, and a pad of water color paper. I returned home apprehensive yet excited.
I laughed a lot in the beginning. Laughter is a nervous reaction of mine. I wanted the flowers to be just right and I had an image in my head and prayed to transfer it to the paper.
I emailed the photographs to my Kindle Fire so I could work on the sketches during my breaks, while sitting at my parents, or wherever I might be. A benefit of bringing them with me via the Kindle Fire, was the ability to re-size the photo for a closer look.
With the sketches complete, it was time to start painting. This process required more time than I thought. I have a new appreciation for painting and the artists that create them using water colors. I never thought it would be easy but I hadn't expected the necessary time and variety of strokes and techniques. I learned so much.
Supplies: The trip to the store proved to be interesting because I've only seen water colors in the tray we use in the elementary school. It was amazing to see the tubes of water color. I picked up the starter kit, water color paint brushes, a basic $.99 paint tray, and a pad of water color paper. I returned home apprehensive yet excited.
I laughed a lot in the beginning. Laughter is a nervous reaction of mine. I wanted the flowers to be just right and I had an image in my head and prayed to transfer it to the paper.
Step Three:
With the completed flower, it was time to prepare the rainbow back drops. Each page is a rainbow, different on each page - just like each child is an individual and unique. Once the watercolor was dry, I cut around the flower to remove the white background. Some of this required using an artist's exacto knife (not sure of the official name of this tool) to get between the petals. The cut flower was then glued on top of the coordinating page.
For instance, the red flower went on the paper with the thickest line in the rainbow being red.
An underlying lesson in the book, each page is organized to match the color scheme of the rainbow: R - red, A - orange, I - yellow, N - Green, B - Blue, O - Indigo, and W - violet.
I allowed time for the glue to try before going to the next step.
With the completed flower, it was time to prepare the rainbow back drops. Each page is a rainbow, different on each page - just like each child is an individual and unique. Once the watercolor was dry, I cut around the flower to remove the white background. Some of this required using an artist's exacto knife (not sure of the official name of this tool) to get between the petals. The cut flower was then glued on top of the coordinating page.
For instance, the red flower went on the paper with the thickest line in the rainbow being red.
An underlying lesson in the book, each page is organized to match the color scheme of the rainbow: R - red, A - orange, I - yellow, N - Green, B - Blue, O - Indigo, and W - violet.
I allowed time for the glue to try before going to the next step.
Step Four:
With the page graphics ready, it was time to add the words. I spent too many hours to count for the research for this part of the book. My initial lists for each letter had many words, as I thought of them, I wrote them down. I carried my notepad for this book with me wherever I went, just in case. In addition to the words brainstormed, I looked up characteristics I saw in the kiddos in my class, that didn't start with R, A, I, N, B, O, or W, in my handy thesaurus.
For some of the letters, the list of words was overwhelming where others lacked the oomph I was looking for. More time in the research and word play. In order to narrow down the word lists to a reasonable and fair number of adjectives per page, I looked up each word on my lists and hand wrote the definitions.
With definitions in hand, I read and reread them, eliminating words that didn't work and highlighting the ones that I new MUST be included. Then the tough calls needed to be made. How many words? Could one have more than the other or should they be the same? I decided each should have the same number of words, but how many words? Yikes, more decisions to be made.
The way I determined how many words tied into the research I'm doing for the sequel to Where's Heidi? One Sister's Journey. While reading and praying, a common number came to mind so I decided this would be the number of words in the book and on each page for my first children's book. A quiet and soft reminder to forgive without listing "forgiveness" as an attribute, since there are no /f/'s in the word, rainbow. Matthew writes, "Then Peter came and said to Him, "Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me and forgive him? Up to seven times?" Jesus said to him, "I do not say to you, up to seven times, but up to seventy times seven." in Chapter eighteen, verses twenty-one and twenty-two. While there aren't hundreds of words, there is an aspect of seven.
With the page graphics ready, it was time to add the words. I spent too many hours to count for the research for this part of the book. My initial lists for each letter had many words, as I thought of them, I wrote them down. I carried my notepad for this book with me wherever I went, just in case. In addition to the words brainstormed, I looked up characteristics I saw in the kiddos in my class, that didn't start with R, A, I, N, B, O, or W, in my handy thesaurus.
For some of the letters, the list of words was overwhelming where others lacked the oomph I was looking for. More time in the research and word play. In order to narrow down the word lists to a reasonable and fair number of adjectives per page, I looked up each word on my lists and hand wrote the definitions.
With definitions in hand, I read and reread them, eliminating words that didn't work and highlighting the ones that I new MUST be included. Then the tough calls needed to be made. How many words? Could one have more than the other or should they be the same? I decided each should have the same number of words, but how many words? Yikes, more decisions to be made.
The way I determined how many words tied into the research I'm doing for the sequel to Where's Heidi? One Sister's Journey. While reading and praying, a common number came to mind so I decided this would be the number of words in the book and on each page for my first children's book. A quiet and soft reminder to forgive without listing "forgiveness" as an attribute, since there are no /f/'s in the word, rainbow. Matthew writes, "Then Peter came and said to Him, "Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me and forgive him? Up to seven times?" Jesus said to him, "I do not say to you, up to seven times, but up to seventy times seven." in Chapter eighteen, verses twenty-one and twenty-two. While there aren't hundreds of words, there is an aspect of seven.
Step Five:
With the painting, cutting, research, and writing complete, it was time to scan and upload each into my computer. Once scanned, I used my computer to add the "You are..." to each page.
One of my favorite things with each page is the 3-D effect the flowers have on the page. I purposely didn't tape my watercolor papers so they would lift, I hoped the dimension would maintain its integrity when scanned, it did! From /R/ to /W/, the colors order of the rainbow is modeled and positive characteristics are displayed.
A rainbow complete and ready to shine and inspire others...especially the kiddos.
With the painting, cutting, research, and writing complete, it was time to scan and upload each into my computer. Once scanned, I used my computer to add the "You are..." to each page.
One of my favorite things with each page is the 3-D effect the flowers have on the page. I purposely didn't tape my watercolor papers so they would lift, I hoped the dimension would maintain its integrity when scanned, it did! From /R/ to /W/, the colors order of the rainbow is modeled and positive characteristics are displayed.
A rainbow complete and ready to shine and inspire others...especially the kiddos.
| Step Six: My hope was for the kids to finish listening to this story and see the rainbow with his or herself. One way I planned to make this notion a reality was by painting and creating a page for you to paste/tape a photo of your kiddo in the circle and have him or her read, "I am a rainbow". After they've heard you read the story to them, when they start to read it to themselves or their younger relatives and friends, they will be speaking these positive truths into their hearts and mind. I pray it helps them to be the child God designed and created them to be. |  |
 | Step Seven: As I waited for the proof book to arrive and reread my notes and the draft ideas came to mind of how this book could be used in different ways within the elementary classroom and even into the middle and high school settings. By the time my first proof arrived, I had the "Ways to use This Book" page finished and added it to the book and submitted the revision to the publisher. I like this addition and its one reason a teacher order multiple copies to gift to her fellow teachers. I'm in the process of putting together an actual "Additional Resources" guide to go along with this book - copy ready activities. This should be available next month. |
Step Eight:
Release and read...
The first child to the market today, Kaleb, made my afternoon. He and his mom, Tiffiny, encouraged me more than they might realize. It brought such joy to read some of the book to him, picking a few of the positive attributes from the book I see in him. The cherry on top of this great moment, his mom captured it with her camera and shared them with me on Facebook.
Has this filled in some of the blanks and mystery about YOU are a Rainbow? I hope so. May this book encourage our future...the kids.
Release and read...
The first child to the market today, Kaleb, made my afternoon. He and his mom, Tiffiny, encouraged me more than they might realize. It brought such joy to read some of the book to him, picking a few of the positive attributes from the book I see in him. The cherry on top of this great moment, his mom captured it with her camera and shared them with me on Facebook.
Has this filled in some of the blanks and mystery about YOU are a Rainbow? I hope so. May this book encourage our future...the kids.
YOU are a Rainbow!
Who do you know that might need some inspiration?
BOOK RELEASE CELEBRATION TONIGHT
3 P.M. - 6 P.M.
New Haven Town Farmer's Market
State Route 104
Town of New Haven, New York
Held in front of the town offices
Hazzy's Tavern is across the Road
| A goal and dream I've had was to release a children's book to help parents explain kidnapping and abduction to children in a non-threatening or fearful way. I thought this would be my first children's book yet God had other plans. Last month I presented "collector copies" of YOU are a Rainbow to the kindergarten class I worked with, as their year-end gift. After all, they were the inspiration behind this book. Their energy, drive, and smiles provided daily encouragement for me and I found a renewed love to teach and spark the next generation to be the best he or she can be. Shortly after Christmas God placed this book on my heart but I couldn't figure out how to illustrate what was in my head. 3 p.m. - 6 p.m. |  I try to be a no stress writer, because if it's work, then I don't want to do it. So I carried the folder and notepad of ideas with me, wherever I went. When an idea came to my mind, I wrote it down. My initial target audience was your 4 -6 year old students but as I prayed and planned, God showed me there are many who need to know they are a RAINBOW. YOU are a Rainbow, in fact. |
Ready to paint... Photo walk to take pictures... A sample page from the book... | I had someone ask, "Could a special needs child read this?" My answer, this book is for everyone - young or old, struggling or advanced reader. This book is written to be read to a child, class of students, children at youth group, or even a group of adults. It isn't your typical story. No plot or conflict. No underlying theme. There are seven pages of "story", each representing a letter and color of the alphabet. RAINBOW is actually the acronym I used to bring this book to life, even though YOU is the word highlighted on the cover. Both are important, YOU and the colors within, your personal rainbow. This is not an error. I did it on purpose. I placed the emphasis on YOU so that whoever picks up this book to read will know they are special, have potential and matter. Seven story pages, eleven words on each page, and opportunities to start important, necessary, and life-changing conversations with those you read it with. One teacher ordered thirteen copies. After thanking her, I asked "Why so many copies?" Her response touched my heart so much. She bought a copy to gift to each teacher in her building because she enjoyed the book so much. She said, "When I saw the extension activities in the back, I knew each teacher needs a copy of this in their classroom." I am humbled and amazed yet thankful because you see, I'm working on a "Resource Guide" for teachers and youth leaders to purchase as a supplemental, with worksheets and activities ready to go - all the teacher/leader will need to do is make the copies. I hope to have this available by the end of the summer, in time for school in case teachers want to use it this year. I understand the time constraints in the classroom and the importance of finding ways to incorporate writing into their routines. |
I'll share more about how this book transitioned from an idea to reality throughout the week - hope to see you tonight at the New Haven Farmer's Market, State Route 104, New Haven, New York, 3 p.m. - 6 p.m. Books are $10. I'll have copies of all five of my books with me tonight - if you can't make it.
Books are available on Amazon.com or I'm at the market most Monday's through September. I'm also scheduling speaking engagements for the Fall and into Spring 2015.
Books are available on Amazon.com or I'm at the market most Monday's through September. I'm also scheduling speaking engagements for the Fall and into Spring 2015.
See you tonight - rain won't stop me from being there. Who knows? Maybe there will be a RAINBOW over and at the market....
*NOTE* If the market is canceled due to rain -
I will post here on the blog and on Facebook and Twitter.
Pray the rain stops and the sun comes out...
Maybe we'll have a rainbow over the market this afternoon?
| The Year of the Lord’s Favor Psalm 61 NIV The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me, because the Lord has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners, | 
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| to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favorI and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn, and provide for those who grieve in Zion-- to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor. |
| They will rebuild the ancient ruins and restore the places long devastated; they will renew the ruined cities that have been devastated for generations. Strangers will shepherd your flocks; foreigners will work your fields and vineyards. And you will be called priests of the Lord, you will be named ministers of our God. You will feed on the wealth of nations, and in their riches you will boast. Instead of your shame you will receive a double portion, and instead of disgrace you will rejoice in your inheritance. And so you will inherit a double portion in your land, and everlasting joy will be yours. “For I, the Lord, love justice; I hate robbery and wrongdoing. In my faithfulness I will reward my people and make an everlasting covenant with them. Their descendants will be known among the nations and their offspring among the peoples. All who see them will acknowledge that they are a people the Lord has blessed.” | 
I delight greatly in the Lord; my soul rejoices in my God. For he has clothed me with garments of salvation and arrayed me in a robe of his righteousness, as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest, and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels. For as the soil makes the sprout come up and a garden causes seeds to grow, so the Sovereign Lord will make righteousness and praise spring up before all nations. A tidbit to share: BibleGateway.com is a great resource to look up Bible verses online. You can look up multiple verses at one time too. This is a tool I use often when looking up verses by topic or doing researching. |
Did you notice the tree before I zoomed in?
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