While I sat in the doctor’s office this afternoon I became lost in thought. Now of course this isn’t uncommon to me yet the direction they swirled shocked even me. With my weight and height taken, the BMI calculated, and my very own blue paper gown on I thought, “Heidi will never experience her fabulous and forty annual check-up.” As the nurse took my blood pressure and all the other necessities prior to the doctor bouncing in, I answered her questions and enjoyed a nice conversation. Yet I was saddened and then thankful.
Heidi has missed so many milestones since her kidnapping. April 3rd will represent the 18th year of Heidi’s disappearance. Vulnerable and alone on the exam table I found myself thinking of the things Heidi has missed. Some made me cry while others made me laugh so hard the nurses probably made a note in my chart to warn the doctor.
A Time to Weep…
*She wasn’t able to walk across the stage for her college diploma
*She didn’t make it to her first job interview to start her career
*She missed her niece’s birth
*She never walked down the aisle to her groom
*She never had her own children
A time to laugh…
*She doesn’t have oodles of college loans to repay
*There are no stretch marks from childbirth
*She doesn’t need to have the girls smooshed every five years
*She isn’t paying taxes
*Her hair remained blonde…no grays!
*Perpetually 18years old to everyone who knew and loved her
*Memories of her first eighteen years to carry us through