Flashback to September 2010 - An Unedited Blog Blast from the Past
Hello Everyone! Thanks for visiting my blog. I am so thankful for a God that lifts us up when we are feeling down. My previous post came from deep within my heart - I received a few emails and had a couple people stop to share words of encouragement or words of "I don't what to say" with me yesterday. I was told it was a depressing post and some weren't sure why I had posted it. While others thanked me for sharing the good, bad and the ugly!
I honestly thought about whether to post or not the other day for these same reasons. I didn't want to depress anyone yet I wanted you all to know that life isn't always easy. I have friends that have lost loved ones (parents & siblings) to cancer, disease and old age so I know they experience similar sadness in attending the milestone events of other friends and family. I don't believe my feelings are unique yet at the same time they are.
When we lose someone to death - we know where they are. If you have lost someone to kidnapping or abduction - unless the body or person is recovered - we never know. We can presume...but we don't know for sure. I had been praying for God's guidance to finish the revisions of my current chapter - He is so faithful and came through.
A couple of my critiques and comments were to keep the grief and intensity in the beginning because I wasn't who I am today during the time I'm writing about at the beginning of the book. This is so true but I was having a hard time finding that deep sorrow and sense of loss - until the wedding.
Don't get me wrong - I'm not walking around wallowing in grief and depression. I'm celebrating my sisters - sisters in Christ, sisters by marriage and the beauty of life's journey. Yet because of the perspective God placed on my heart during the
service - HE found that emotion needed to wrap up the next chapter's revision!
Thank you Jesus! He always knows what we need, when we need it. I apologize if you thought the previous posting was too much. I only want each of you to travel this journey with me. There are days that revising and writing break my heart. There are days I can't formulate the words and sentences needed to finish. So God finds the triggers in life to stimulate my creative genious, the gift He has given me to share and help others.
Most of my post have been filled with sunshine and roses but that isn't always the life one lives when they wake up each morning not knowing where their loved one is...are they alive or dead? I write to help others and in the process...God is helping me grieve and heal through aspects I hadn't yet dealt with. (and I thought I had)
O LORD, our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth! You have set your glory above the heavens. From the lips of children and infants you have ordained praise because of your enemies, to silence the foe and the avenger. When I consider your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you care for him? You made him a little lower than the heavenly beings and crowned him with glory and honor. You made him ruler over the works of your hands; you put everything under his feet: all flocks and herds, and the beasts of the field, the birds of the air, and the fish of the sea, all that swim the paths of the seas. O LORD, our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth!
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Lisa M Buske
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