Keeping it Real...
Welcome! No matter how you found this, God knew you'd be here today. May you absorb the message He has for you. In 2011 I shared through my writing, today I've learned there is more to me than just writing. I have the energy and passion to share with others. Sometimes through Facebook live and others with my blog and most importantly, I've learned my passion to cook and bake is a vessel to share my writing and live presentations, while glorifying God in the process. I just needed to let go, and follow His lead.
“I’m out of here! This is my last vigil! First He takes Heidi and now He won’t even have someone pray for me. I hate Him.” My face red with anger and my voice getting louder, I start to walk home.
Today is different. Do you know what this difference is, well one of them anyway?
It's not losing my sister to abduction, she's still missing.
Instead of lonely and surrounded by a multitude of caring people,
I'm alone and comforted by seven times seventy.
In 1994, I ran as far, as fast, and privately as possibly...away from God.
Today, my choice of isolation isn't due to avoidance. In order to keep my eyes, mind, and heart focused on the One who never left me when I ran in the opposite direction twenty years ago, I'm taking the necessary time to process and work through all that is happening.
It took a couple decades but one valuable lesson I've learned, no one expects my parents, or me to have it "together". This was my greatest misconception. On the flip side, you don't need to witness the full impact either. So to keep this blog and journey as honest and real, as the blog has been since 2010. With much prayer and strength, my goal is to continue to post daily. You all hurt and wait, just like we, the family are. In God's strength and love...
I will not run away.
I will not live in fear.
I will not give up.
I'm a survivor...
Heidi remains missing and recent developments may or may not change this.
One thing remains true and constant and unchanging...God. This I know and trust.
"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever."
No one knows what information or scenarios will play out in the days, weeks, and months to come BUT every step of the way...I'm resting in the shadow of His wings while we wait.
Waiting is something I know, Another lesson I've learned, there is no sense worrying about the unknown.
The delivery to our family, Heidi's friends, and the community was abrupt, blindsiding us all. A reporter on the steps for a "courtesy" visit ten minutes before going live on the Internet wasn't enough time. But, as I've thought about it, to wait longer probably would have created more anxiety as we waited for the "what" of his story.
We are sorry you had to, and are, enduring the pain, grief, and loss felt when we first lost Heidi alongside us. Yet, your encouragement and outpouring is a reminder of why we love our community so much, Heidi will always be remembered. She isn't just a case number, she is a beloved member of my family, your family, your circle of friends, your neighbor, and God's precious daughter.
We couldn't control the way we received this news on Thursday, BUT WE CAN control our response. So rather than panic and get upset, it's one more thing to wait for. One thing I know, we all are stronger than we give ourselves credit for, we've waited twenty plus years - so to wait a few days to see what the public defender files is possible.
Thank you for understanding my silence, I'm not hiding like I did the first time - I'm simply trying to run TO God first and avoid getting involved in conversations that could unintentionally cause hurt feelings or prevent others from discussing the hottest topic of conversation in our neck of the woods for the time being.
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Thank you all...we are blessed to have you praying, encouraging, and supporting Heidi, her family, friends, and community.
Lisa M Buske
P.O. Box 323
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