Do you have moments when it feels like you are alone, beaten by the waves of life, and drenched with doubts, fear, and grief? I wish I could tell you I can't relate, but I do. The first decade or so following my sister's kidnapping I spent days, months, and even years feeling this way. Thankfully, my times of "woe is me" and living in an isolated grief-stricken state are in the past.
Yes, there are moments when the weakness within me clouds my thought processes and makes me ask "Why God? Why?" but I've learned, this gets me NO WHERE!
"Better one handful with tranquillity
I challenge you to let go of life's toil and waves of trouble. Open your hands and heart to release these burdens to God. Thanks to one child telling me, "Mrs. Buske, you need Jesus." I chose God over the living a life stranded on the rock alone. Of course, I was never alone.
God never left me, I left Him. I was surrounded by family and friends every step of the way. These same people, along with our community, prayed, and continue to pray for Heidi and our family. It was my perception that I was alone. Yet at the time, it felt like each time I wiped the water from my eyes after a wave knocked me down -- another wave hit me.
The verse from Ecclesiastes above talks about the difference between "one handful of tranquillity" versus "two handfuls with toil and chasing after the wind". God offers us HIS handful of peace and calmness in exchange for our toils and chasing. This is a very cool exchange, so why do we continue to chase the wind? It's foolish if you think about it. We will never catch the wind and without a trust in God, the same wind we chase will fuel the waves used to knock us down.
I'm thankful God never left me. I'm thankful for the people God used to share His love, hope, healing, peace, strength, grace, mercy, and truth with me. If no one has told you lately, let me share something with you.
You matter and God loves you.
You are special and can overcome whatever obstacle, toil, trouble or wave you are facing today when you trust God and rest in his tranquillity, not the world's chasing.
You are not the first one to experience whatever trouble is beating you down.
You are not alone.
You have HOPE!
Instead of standing on the rock, fighting against the waves and wind to stand on your own -- lift your hands, release the hurt, anger, and fear to God. Grab a hold of the ladder He sends to you and start to climb up and out. You might slip on a rung or two while you are climbing out but with your eyes fixed on Him...you will not fall!
God loves you and is waiting for you to call to Him. Don't give up, He already overcame the world -- trust Him and you will have true tranquillity.
"Glory in his holy name;
Life will toss you waves but you have a choice.
Lisa M Buske
P.O. Box 323