April 2004 was a difficult month for me. Heidi had been missing for ten years that month. My disbelief she was still missing overwhelmed me and I spiraled further away from God in my pursuit to find Heidi or someone or something to fill the void.
Between April and November of 2004 I visited multiple psychics who told me what I “wanted” to hear, not the Truth or what I “needed” to hear but instead they fed my hunger with lies and false hope. My eyes were too veiled to recognize the deception but thankfully God loves me enough to keep placing the Truth in my path and used the one vessel He knew I would hear him, a child.
Seven years ago this Sunday represents the day I walked through the doors of the Community Alliance Church in New Haven, New York. A small white church located at 4175 State Route 104, a short drive from home. I crossed their threshold the first time because one of my students told me, “Mrs. Buske, you need Jesus. Will you come to my church?” Before I could brush his request off, his persistence and genuine concern resonated in my heart, of course.
I’ll be honest with you; I only walked through the doors out of an obligation to child. I promised to go and so I did. I never anticipated or expected the loving welcome I would receive or the healing that took place in such a short time frame. An hour of Sunday school and a little over an hour of worship and Pastor’s message left me to drive home with tears in my eyes.
God loved me. He NEVER left me. God was always with me and loved me! My Gram told me this often yet something in the message or the way the Holy Spirit worked in my heart made it more real. Each Thanksgiving season for the past seven years I remember the look in that student’s eyes as he told me “You need Jesus.”
In truth, we all need Jesus. Have you taken time to seek Him? I’m thankful for the boldness and love of a child…he led me to a new life and hope and he will always hold a special and dear spot in my heart.
Hear my voice when I call, LORD;
be merciful to me and answer me.
My heart says of you, “Seek his face!”
Your face, LORD, I will seek.
To learn how God carried me the first ten years after my sister's kidnapping you are welcome to join us at the Believers' Chapel North in Mexico, New York on Route 3 this coming Thursday (12/1) at 6:30 p.m..
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Lisa M Buske
P.O. Box 323