I was asked a question yesterday while at work. It was a simple question with only an honest answer in return. The question was worded something like this, "Are you different when you are out wearing your author and speaking hat than you normally are?" I thought about it a minute and said, "I try to be the same person regardless of where I am."
I laughed out loud and while still in the room with this wonderful person I said, "I am but then I'm not. I think I am more serious here at school." We talked a little more, recognizing we are the same person regardless of our location but maybe different. Does that make sense? Same but different...I am who I am. Right?
The idea of "who" I am here, there, or anywhere for that matter lingered in my mind throughout the day. I found myself asking, "Am I the same person?"
When I'm working in a room with five year olds, the "who" I am is the same but how I respond and interact is going to be different than if I was at a speaking event for a women's church group. Two different audiences and settings require us to modify who we are so those we are spending time with, receive and understand our message.
I think this is the part to keep in perspective. Although the way we interact might change, the "who" we are should be consistent and reliable. I might not wear makeup or curl my hair to its full flip on a daily basis when I enter the Kindergarten classroom but my heart to teach and care for the kiddos in my class is always there.
My wardrobe to sit criss-cross-applesauce on the floor from 8 a.m. - 4 p.m. is quite different than a pair of dress slacks, a nice shirt, and possibly a pair of heels to share my testimony and sister Heidi at speaking engagements (unless we I'm talking about the al"lure" of Christ then I dress like a fisherman, lol) but my desire to be the best woman of God I can be, is the same.
And whatever you do, whether in word or deed,
Is it easier to be the Proverbs 31 woman when surrounded by other sisters-in-Christ? Of course.
Do I fight temptation more when I'm under stress?
Am I perfect?
NO! Will I ever be perfect? NO.
Does my heart for others change?
Am I more vocal and open in some situations than others?
Am I glad I was asked this question the other day?
So a seemingly simple question has challenged and rebuked me. I am not always who I want to be yet I strive to be that person each day. As I looked up different verses about "who" I am in Christ, I was overcome with emotion. I was humbled, rebuked, encouraged, grateful, and amazed. Popeye might be who he is as he sings, "I am who I am" but this girl chooses to be who God says I am and who He has called me to be.
So "who" are you? Are you the same or different?
Lisa M Buske
P.O. Box 323