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Happy New Year 2012

12/31/2012

“Tomorrow, is the first blank page
of a 365 page book.
Write a good one.”
― Brad Paisley

A special thanks to Michelle , from Random Writing Rants, for letting me share this
fabulous quote from your post this morning on Facebook. Happy New year!
http://randomwritingrants.com/

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Not Your Average Marketing Portfolio

12/30/2012

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As many take down Christmas decorations, prepare for New Year's Eve celebrations, or gear up for the return to work this week -- I have decided to wait on all of the above. Instead of stressing or hurrying to clean the house up before school starts again, I am striving to complete as much "writing" and "speaking" related tasks first.

The calendar will read January 1, 2013 before we know it and this also means, Where's Heidi? One Sister's Journey is nearing the last round of editing before hitting "Accept Proof" so we can start ordering books for the April 3, 2013 release date.

The path of an Indie author is similar yet different to your traditional author. Thank goodness, I'm not your traditional or typical girl either. While some of the tasks on my to-do-list are different, much are the same. The greatest difference is that when you self-publish, you need to work at this list mostly on your own or with the help of your writers' critique group, friends, family, and fellow authors and speakers.

I have a attended a few writers' conferences and continue to learn not only how to be the best writer I can, but how to "market" myself, my books, and my speaking. I've listened to various presenters share how they "market" themselves and their books and ministry. I've taken a multitude of notes, read too many blogs to count, and asked questions of the experts already published or speaking on a professional level.

I have downloaded free templates to organize my marketing plan, read books on how to set this up, and even asked to see how others do this. In the long run, I decided to mesh all I've learned into a way that is effective to me. This is the key with writing, or with business , for that matter. One will struggle to be successful if she tries to organize, publicize, and "be" someone she isn't.

Those who know me might think it is all organized on the computer with various charts, graphs, Word documents, and Excel documents ~ all organized into an appropriate folder on my computer. WRONG! I started this way but didn't find it functional for the amount of time spent on the go in my life.

My marketing plan is organized, detailed, and very colorful yet it is within the yellow and blue notebook you see above. The pages are tabbed with various colored sticky-notes and it keeps an April 3, 2013 release date possible.

This is an exciting time. Some authors would rather be writing and let someone else do this end but I so love people, this is becoming some of the most fun. There are businesses an author can pay to organize this information, to promote their book, to schedule speaking engagements, and even to set up blog tours. I have looked into these yet this teacher's assistant and her fabulous husband are trusting God and doing it ourselves.

As we move forward and continue to trust God, He is always faithful. I sent out invitations to authors, editors, publishers, and friends I have met since July 2010 through various writing and speaking venues. I invited them/you to come alongside me to share Where's Heidi? One Sister's Journey with their readers. The response is only something God could orchestrate.

Therefore if you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any common sharing in the spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and of one mind. Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves,
not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others. Phil. 2:1-4

While my marketing plan might not be a glorified Excel program, it is one allowing for time to glorify God and let Him be glorified through the generosity and help of others. God gifted me with the skills to write for Him, long before I knew there were books to be written.

What does your marketing plan look like? Traditional or not-so-traditional? Have you helped a fellow brother or sister-in-Christ in their mission to serve God? Isn't a great feeling to help each other and share Jesus in the process? Very cool, if I say so myself.

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More Than A Beautiful Exterior

12/29/2012

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This is the beautifully wrapped box my parents snuggled the handmade pen holder and pens into. It teased me for a couple weeks prior to Christmas and was worth the wait. Did I mention the pens write in pink to match my book cover and mom put pink roses on the tops so they would look nice sitting on the table too? She is one clever woman.

The packages are opened, the bows and cards saved, and the ripped paper disposed of yet the joy and spirit of Christmas lingers throughout both homes still. Yes, our trees are still lit and decorated. Yes, the gifts still surround the tree. BUT this is the reason Christmas joy remains, it is because of Jesus. He was born a babe for us on Christmas day. Talk about a gift that keeps on giving. As you put away your gifts, take down your tree, and regain some control in your home from the multitude of Christmas decorations ~ remember Jesus was born to die.

Easter is around the corner. And this year, instead of dreading Easter or the date "April 3rd" ~ I choose anticipation and joy. Jesus will rise from the dead on Easter Sunday and my first book will be released a few days before this celebration. Please don't mistake me, I am not comparing my little ol' book coming out to Christ's resurrection. My only link is for the first time in nearly nineteen years ~ I anticipate April more than December.

Since we have to wait to celebrate Jesus resurrection on Easter Sunday and we have to wait for the release of my first book, Where's Heidi? One Sister's Journey...I decided not to wait in sharing the new website design with you.

I hope you like it! Something fresh and perfectly pink...to match the bleeding heart rose on the cover of the book. An early Happy New Year to all of you!

Feel free to share comments below ~ your words are always an encouragement to me and my entire family.

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An Aitken Photo Shoot...So Much Fun

12/28/2012

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More than two years ago I met John Aitken. He was an aspiring writer and photographer. In addition to belonging to the same writers' group, our paths crossed daily at the local middle school. John's creative genius and energy for the arts continues to inspire his students.

Since our first meeting, John and his wife Abby, expanded their family to include twins and their home to include John's first photography studio. Two friends with separate dreams yet a common bond, to use the gifts God has blessed us with to help others. John captures the beauty within each of his clients with his camera while I use writing.

In 2010, I shared my dream to one day seek publication with our writers' group. John offered to take the pictures for my professional portfolio. Unaware of both dreams becoming a reality in the near future, I thanked him.

The following year I switched buildings at school and our writers' group slowly dwindled and then came to a close. Although we kept in touch via Facebook and on superintendent's days, our paths didn't cross much.

I remembered this conversation as I outlined my portfolio and worked with my wonderful PR person on the things needed before the release of my book. To contact John was on my list but before I reached this item, John emailed me.

We set up a date and time, I picked out a wardrobe to meet John's suggestions to the best of my ability, and arrived at the scheduled time. John's studio is as lovely as John's personality. It is warm, inviting, and full of surprise.

Since we arrived a few minutes early I was able to watch John wrap up the session before me. He truly loves what he does and has an eye for detail. The door connecting to his house also serves as a gateway to endless props for his various photo shoots. In a matter of minutes the studio was transformed from newborn photo-shoot to one for an author and her first professional photo-shoot.

At the conclusion of the shoot, Mags and I packed up the array of items we brought then followed John to his office to complete paperwork. With the details in order, we waited to receive the proofs.

I found John's pictures amazing as we looked through the picture window of his camera but to see the actual proofs and CD, we were speechless. Beautiful and awe-inspiring photograph is a gift. I'm ever so thankful for a friend like John. He captured my personality while providing the professional head shot I needed.

John's photographic talents range from babies, weddings, high school seniors, and so much more. If you are looking for an inspirational and captivating photo, I would give John a call.

"My ambition is to capture photos with emotion, intention, and creative style. I have developed an innovative approach that combines journalistic, creative, and traditional photography to capture the moments that tell your story. I create a relaxed yet professional atmosphere that allows me to truly capture who you are." John Aitken

To contact John or see some of his work:
Phone - (315) 409-3005
Email - johnaitkenphotography@yahoo.com
Website - http://johnaitkenphotography.com
You may also click on any of the above photos for a direct link.

Additional photos will be shared in 2013 as part
of the website's face lift prior to the Where's Heidi? One Sister's Journey blog tour!

~ Thank you again John Aitken Photography ~
Phone - (315) 409-3005
Email - johnaitkenphotography@yahoo.com

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Significance of Purple ~ Part II

12/27/2012

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So Much Love...Priceless Treasures

How many of you heard of "purpleheart" wood before yesterday's blog? My parents shared of a purple wood this summer but left the history and full name a secret until a later date. I LOVE my book ends and look forward to setting them atop my new bookcase once the Christmas decorations are put way.

Of course, it is the time, effort, love, and encouragement they represents that truly brings a smile to my face. One of my first responses to my dad was, "Now I have two bookshelves made by you." The other, made in December of 1973. Over the years it has been used to hold children's books, my daughter's books as a toddler, and now it holds my daily devotionals and a couple prayer journals.

Both designed, hand crafted, and gifted from my Daddy to me as a small token of his love to encourage me when life might want to deter me. I am blessed to have both an amazing carpenter Daddy and an An Amazing Carpenter who gave His life on the cross for my sins. Wow! Doubly blessed ~ I pray you can say the same.

As if the book ends weren't enough, Dad and Mom created one more thing from the purpleheart wood, or should I say five?

Dad cut five hearts from a thinner piece of wood to create pendants for us. Mom, Mags, and I each have a necklace. I asked, "Where did you get the chains?" Mom's smile said it all, "They are from Heidi's jewelry box." Beautiful!

Dad made key rings for Ed and himself. All five have a picture of Heidi on them, taken the day Ed and I were married. Priceless treasures.

Mom said, "Austin is right, you deserve to wear the purple heart. Thanks for helping us see we have each earned one too."

Five hearts with Heidi atop the purpleheart wood as a reminder, we have all been through a lot and have survived to tell about it. Our purplehearts represent the courage to share with others, so everyone knows there is hope and healing available to them. May you recognize this gift is available to you too.

Mom popped in the purpleheart Christmas photo,
isn't that smile awesome?

They also made me a pen holder
and bought pink pens for
future book signings!
Yippee!

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The Significance of Purple ~ Part I

12/26/2012

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Unless you are a master carpenter or a creative teen, "purple heart" is usually associated with the military in recognition of one's injury or death in the line of duty. I never dreamed to receive such an honor for a couple reasons. First and foremost, I've never been in the military. Secondly, I didn't see myself being injured or dying while serving my country. The closest thing to the military I came, marrying a Marine.

BUT God used a sweet young man and his family to change modify my perspective on the "purple heart" medal. Last December (2011) I started my speaking ministry with Austin and his family at my first one. Shortly there after I heard from his Mom and she asked I could meet them one morning at Dunkin Donuts. Good friends and good coffee? Of course? What time?

My mother joined me. Nothing could have prepared us for the blessing they gifted me. Once introductions were complete and as our drinks cooled enough to drink I opened a small box containing my very own purple heart. The card and note treasured within moved me and it was hard not to cry in the middle of Dunkin Donuts. Why...because Austin said, “Wouldn’t it be cool if we could come up with a Purple Heart badge for Lisa...I know (she was in battle) the battle for her soul.”

To read more about this humbling exchange, click on either of today's photographs for a direct link. Austin's kindness continues to bless me and my entire family a year later. Only God knew the extent of one child's thoughtfulness and his family's generosity through the next year.

I continue to cherish this necklace and the hope, healing, and friendship it represents. The symbolism was appreciated by my entire family but I didn't realize the impact it had on my parents until Christmas morning.

Did you know there is something called "purpleheart" wood? Well, there is and it is a beautiful, hard, and heavy piece of wood. As my father delves into carpentry once again, he and Mom visit different lumber yards and specialty wood shops looking for unique or striking pieces of wood to create shelves, tables, and who knows what.

As they enjoyed a walk through one particular business they stumbled upon "purpleheart" wood. They mentioned they found a "purple" wood to me but never revealed its entire name or their intentions but instead started to save and scheme for my hand crafted Christmas gift.

On Christmas morning I opened a typical red and green package to uncover two book ends. Each contains three hearts and a shine to reflect your face when you admire them. The base and two of the hearts are made from "purpleheart" wood. The center heart is cherry, cherry left over from the kitchen counter of my parent's house.

Underneath the two bookends was a card shaped like a purple heart with a note from my parents. With tears moisturizing my eyes I learned this purple shaded wood is yet another purple heart for me. They wrote, "...stands for courage up and above the call of duty. We feel you had that courage to write your book."

Humbled, grateful, thankful, and appreciative of the love God shares with me through my parents and so many others.

According to "Touch Wood Rings", the meaning behind the "purpleheart" wood is: "Purpleheart is a spiritual wood. It enhances energy dealing with creativity and knowledge. One of the best woods when dealing with spiritual healing and health issues, purpleheart would be especially useful in eradicating the negative energies that create strife in the home."
http://www.touchwoodrings.com/qualitiesofwood.html

"...The color purple as you know was Heidi's favorite color.
The color purple also relates to the imagination and spirituality.
You had the imagination and the spirit to write your book for
yourself and Heidi. It relates to transforming the soul but
still keeping you grounded while representing the future.

We both believe the book is going to be a big
success and will help many others.

This was made by us not only to hold your book
but as a reminder of your courage, imagination,
and spirit while looking to the future..."
Love Dad and Mom

To learn more about the rest of my purpleheart Christmas...read tomorrow's blog. More pictures too!

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Merry Christmas to one and all!

12/25/2012

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From our family to yours...

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Twas the Night Before Heidi Disappeared

12/24/2012

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This is a photo of my sister Heidi, my cousin Shawnacy, and I building one of the castles I mentioned on the mini-blog post at the "Where's Heidi?" Facebook page. For a direct link, click on the picture above to see the finished creation.

Here is my gift to you, a poem written by yours truly. Twas the Night before Heidi Disappeared is my rendition and Christmas poem, you are the first to read it. Merry Christmas Eve everyone! ~ Lisa ~

Twas the Night Before
My Sister Disappeared
By Lisa M Buske

Twas the night before my sister would disappear
Her smile and gift of joy were evident and clear
Our last memories reside at our parent’s house
Celebration transitions to grief in the courthouse

We spent the day together shopping without a care
Not realizing my dear sister was in need of prayer
Graduation and Easter egg hunts consumed our chatter
Dreams of future “Sister Days” was all that matter

But when tomorrow came, instead of searching for an Easter egg
Tragedy stole my sister, leaving us to beg
Our small town of New Haven has always been safe
But that changed when two men stole the cashier and our faith

The phone rang and made me dash
To pick up the receiver to hear words causing me to gasp
“Heidi is missing. Get to the store.”
How can this be happening? An emotional uproar.

Ed gently pried the phone from my fingers with love
Although we really needed to get moving, he didn’t shove
Instead, wrapped his arms around to whisper an encouraging word
I was frozen but thankfully Ed moved me forward

From snug in our bed to racing to meet at the store
The scene of the crime revealed so much more
My sister is really missing and tragedy has struck
Within moments my emotional state was sure to self-destruct

Interviews given and photographs shared
I was now living one’s worst nightmare
“Bring back my sister!” Why, why, why…
I lean against the last pump to sigh

All I keep asking is “Where are my parents?” but no one hears
My fear, confusion, and grief consume me and the atmosphere
With preliminaries out of the way, we transition to the fire hall
Fax machines and telephones arrive and we make the important call

“Heidi is missing. Have you seen her today?”
But each ended the same, “I haven’t seen her.” Sad to say
People arrived from near and far to help with the search
While others learned of Heidi’s kidnapping while sitting at church

Minutes turned into hours and hours into days
Days into months and I spent the next decade in a daze
We never gave up and seek that one clue
Searching, hoping, and praying too

At first, I blamed this God some looked to for strength
Because a loving and caring God wouldn’t need to go to such length
BUT it wasn’t God who took my sister and ripped her from our lives
It was satan’s evil desires to rob, steal, and vandalize

Instead of running to God for the healing, strength, and hope
I ran the other way and slid swiftly on a downslope
Into satan’s lies and deception until one child shared truth
“Mrs. Buske, you need Jesus” and this plan is foolproof

I invited Jesus into my life and let Him get-r-done
Years of hurt, anger, and resentment weighed a ton
But thankfully Jesus’ shoulders are strong enough to bear the weight
For His time is not like ours, so I choose to trust as I wait

The process to heal was long and on-going, even today
Yet it is manageable and full of hope when I choose to obey
God never left me, I left Him
When I was ready He started to work from within

Heidi is still missing, the years mirrored by those with us
There isn’t a day we don’t miss her or make a fuss
To cherish our family and friends as we express our love
Knowing all healing, mercy, and grace come from above.

Instead of focusing on the negative or tragedy thrust into your life
Choose to celebrate and live without blithe
Holidays are a great time to mend hurts and a broken relationship
Instead of fighting or living in stress, choose to mend and worship

God sent His Only Son to be born a babe on this Christmas Eve
Knowing He would suffer a horrific death for those who believe
Jesus Christ paid the price for our sins and gifted the Holy Spirit
To intercede on our behalf until we reach the Eternity we inherit

My sweet, younger, and only sister remain one of America’s missing
I have made new friends near and far suffering the same thing
All of us share a common bond of loss and grief
With the same opportunity of hope and healing wrapped in belief

I chose to believe and cherish
Focusing on the good and not to perish
The choice is yours and yours alone
Will you wear the fragrance of God’s healing cologne?

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It's the 100th Day!!

12/23/2012

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If you have or had children in elementary school then you are familiar with the 100th day of school. It signifies to teachers and students, the school year is more than half way over. Here on the blog though, the 100th day represents something different.

In one-hundred days, at 12:00 p.m. I will sign my first book at a "Mystery Book Signing". The countdown to the release of Where's Heidi? One Sister's Journey on April 3, 2013. You read that correctly, a mystery book signing on April 3rd at Noon! Location to be revealed through a series of clues on the March TOP's Tuesday blogs. Nineteen years ago we searched for Heidi but in 2013, I welcome you to join in the search for a book sharing hope and triumph after tragedy.

No worries, if you aren't into games or scavenger hunts ~ after Christmas I will be working out details with The River's End Bookstore in Oswego, New York for an official book release party and book signing. Once details are confirmed, it will be posted on the book page.

Another fun thing we are doing during these 100 days leading up to April 3, 2013 is to achieve 6,935 Facebook likes on the "Where's Heidi?" Facebook page. I share the blog on my Facebook page, Lisa M Buske but there is also a page just for the book. Here you can find mini-blogs not posted anywhere else and various tidbits not shared on the blog.

Why 6,935 days? Great question ~ On April 3, 2013, Heidi will have been missing 6,935. Our goal is to have one Facebook like on the book page for each day my family, community, and all of you have searched for Heidi M. Allen! To us, each Facebook like is a sign of hope for Heidi. There is a direct link on the picture above or you can type in "Where's Heidi?" in the search bar on Facebook.

Thank you for joining us on this journey to find Heidi and share "Where's Heidi?" with your friends, family, co-workers, and neighbors. May everyone know there is hope! In less then two days we celebrate the reason we have this hope, the reason I personally have hope, Jesus is born a man. He was born to die...for you and for me! There is hope!

As we celebrate the 100th day until the release of
Where's Heidi? One Sister's Journey arrives,
how is your heart encouraged?
What are you looking forward too?
Where or who is your hope placed in?

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Let the Lights Brighten Your Christmas

12/22/2012

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We celebrate because Jesus suffered!

Make some noise and enjoy this wonderful Christmas season.
As I celebrate and enjoy the holidays, I continue to pray for
friends and family who will celebrate the first Christmas
without a precious loved one or those spending their holiday
in the hospital at a loved ones bedside. I continue to
pray for you all as God places you on my heart.

This celebration video is dedicated to those struggling
this holiday season. Not only will you be smiling
when it finishes, I pray a little hope and light
pushed out the loss and darkness in your hearts.

Merry Christmas!

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What gets you excited on Christmas morning? Part II of II

12/21/2012

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I pray you spent some time reflecting on the gifts of Christmas past and present that meant the most to you. Some of my favorite Christmas gifts were the ones given, not received.

God GAVE the Indescribable and Inexpressible Gift to us on Christmas morning. He did this because of His great love for ALL people. He gave His Son, Jesus, to be born a human baby, knowing Jesus would need to suffer a death on a cross later in His life. Could you give your only child if you knew He would die? I couldn't.

Heidi and I were blessed little girls and young ladies. Heidi was robbed her adulthood at the hands of her kidnappers. I spent more than a decade living in the pain and grief of this horrid loss. Today, I choose to celebrate life and cherish each moment and memory made. We don't know what tomorrow (or even five minutes from now) will bring but thank God, we know Who brings each tomorrow.

I unwrapped the Indescribable gift of Jesus in the Fall of 2004, shortly after the ten year anniversary of Heidi's disappearance. I don't claim to have all the answers but I know Who to lean on when I have questions.

I encourage you to lean on, trust in, and look to God this Christmas season. He gave his Only Son to be born a babe, knowing He would suffer a horrific death of a cross. BUT thankfully, Jesus rose from the dead three days later, on Easter!

Merry Christmas from our family to yours!
The video will be reposted on Christmas Eve.

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What gets you excited on Christmas Morning? Part I of II

12/20/2012

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As a child, to see the display of wrapped gifts created butterflies of anticipation in my stomach. And just when Heidi and I didn't think it could get any better, Christmas morning came and the gifts multiplied while we slept. Some gifts made us shout with joy, some made us blush, and others brought tears to our eyes. Regardless of the gift, an emotion was connected to each one after the wrapping paper was removed and the gift revealed.

I still look forward to Christmas morning but with duel anticipation. Of course, I still love to see the gifts beneath the tree and to speculate what each might have hidden within the wrapping but now there is a gift I open every day. The gift of Jesus.

Christmas is more than material gifts, these are just the "above and beyond" of Jesus' love for us. The Ultimate Gift, one we can receive on any given day of the year, is Jesus. Once we invite Him into our lives, He leaves His Holy Spirit to live in our heart to help us through each day. Salvation is a free gift and you only need receive it once yet if we are growing in our faith, we can unwrap it each day.

There is a Bible verse that talks about God's goodness is new every morning. If our eyes and heart are closed then we won't see all the wonders God places before us each day. Some days might be more difficult than others but with our hope in Jesus and not in the stuff, the day is going to be easier than without Him.

Have you unwrapped the Indescribable, Inexpressible Free Gift of a relationship with Jesus? He is the Gift that keeps on giving and is available 24/7. You don't need to wait until Christmas morning but if you haven't welcomed Him into your life ~ it seems as if there isn't a better time than during this most blessed time of year...Christ Mass!

"Now thanks be to God for His Gift, [precious] beyond telling [His indescribable, inexpressible, free Gift]! 2 Corinthians 9:15 AMP

Praise the LORD! Praise God in His sanctuary;
Praise Him in His mighty firmament!
Praise Him for His mighty acts;
Praise Him according to His excellent greatness!
Praise Him with the sound of the trumpet;
Praise Him with the lute and harp!
Praise Him with the timbrel and dance;
Praise Him with stringed instruments and flutes!
Praise Him with loud cymbals;
Praise Him with clashing cymbals!
Let everything that has breath praise the LORD.
Praise the LORD!
Psalm 150

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"Shame Prom" ~ Meet Kristine Van Raden

12/19/2012

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Dancing at the Shame Prom:
Sharing the Stories that Kept Us Small

Kristine shares with us:

While I am not a religious person, I would definitely stand in the spiritual line. I have no doubt that there is a god, a creator, a purveyor of the miraculous, and I have undeniably heard the call to serve. In 1997, there was no refuting the countless messages that a “divinely inspired” project devoted to uniting women was my assignment...like it or not. I had the immense privilege of being called into this “service” with my dearest friend, and while I could understand the value of her contribution and stewardship, I struggled with my own feelings of inadequacy. Every time I tried to squirm my way out though, something extraordinary occurred that nudged me forward.

The project, Letters to Our Daughters, seemed to be an opportunity to connect women to one another based on commonalities. While differences tend to separate us, there are common threads that connect us...and those were ours to find. Have you ever noticed that when women speak about their children, there is an instant familiarity? Regardless of circumstances mothers walk a similar path. What matters to one, generally matters to most. We all want better lives for our children; futures filled with hope, security, love and honor. Letters to Our Daughters is a collection of 44 heartfelt and authentic letters from mothers around the country and around the world. While each one speaks of a unique situation, the underlying messages are that of unconditional love and devotion.

Since the publication of LTOD, I have been witness to the miracle that comes with being willing to speak the truth. The courageous women who contributed letters not only healed, encouraged and loved their own daughters, but their messages have resonated with countless women. The result being that those common threads have strengthened others, allowing their own personal truths to be told.

I know the value of telling the truth. I have seen first hand the remarkable results of someone willing to be vulnerable, and I have been inspired by the stories others so courageously share. But since my own daughter was diagnosed with anorexia 6 years ago, I have not been able to speak about it. Initially it was out of respect for her process. She needed to talk about it when she was ready and with whom she trusted. While that left our family rather isolated, I welcomed it. I felt such shame...not about my daughter or her eating disorder, but about my own inadequacy as her mother.

One of the most common of common threads that connect mothers is the hope and prayer that they never fail their children. Daunting task! Impossible expectations! Failure is inevitable. And yet, we fool ourselves into thinking that if we love them with every cell in our bodies, attend to their every need, want and desire, they will get through life with less suffering than we did. Did I mention Impossible Expectations! So when our children do suffer and often suffer hopelessly, guilt and disappointment is our burden to bear. I thought that I could LOVE my daughter out of her excruciating pain. When that didn’t work, I had to come to grips with my own shortcomings, and sense of limitation.

I was finally able to speak about our collective suffering because my daughter grew stronger by the day. She was the one who faced, head on, the truth, the plight associated with an eating disorder, the hard work required to move ahead. She never placed blame...not on me, not on herself. She accepted the mental illness for what it was, not what I constantly imagined it to be...my fault.

As miracles would have it, the authors of Dancing at the Shame Prom approached us with the guarded and respectful invitation to tell our story. So many in our culture suffer silently with eating disorders...often unsupported and more often judged harshly by those who simply do not understand. My daughter considered the request and felt the time was right. We talked about what each of us might say, but we agreed not to share our pieces until we were both finished. When we read them to one another it was indeed divine. They were two halves of the entire experience. They were woven together with common threads that created a story of truth, unconditional love, and hope...

We both know that writing about our experiences has been a significant part of our most cherished outcome; wellness and self acceptance. Shame thrives when kept in the dark...but turn on the light? The truth will set you free!

Thank you Kristine for visiting the blog today. I look forward to reading Shame Prom this month and will post my review on January 2, 2013. A double-dip from Shame Prom within a few weeks time.

Book Synopsis:
Whether it was the one-night stand you always regretted, the family secret you never revealed, or the emotional abuse you endured in silence, there are some things you are so ashamed of you keep them hidden for a lifetime. Shame can hold you back from what you love, diminish your sense of self-worth, and prevent you from fully being who you are. But what happens when you finally relent and share that secret burden?

In Dancing at the Shame Prom: Sharing the Stories That Kept Us Small (September 18, 2012, Seal Press), editors Amy Ferris and Hollye Dexter encourage readers to confront this powerful emotion head-on. They gather together 27 gifted and talented writers who reveal, explore, and embrace the root of their shame, in the process demonstrating the strength that comes from defeating their demons.

In a brilliant display of bravery, these writers share their darkest fears, offer up their most vulnerable moments, and reveal jaw-dropping secrets. Journalist Nina Burleigh discusses the shame she felt at being coerced into posing for “artsy” naked photos in “Year of the Rat.” In “Playing Dead Under the Family Tree,” Monica Holloway shows how her husband’s infidelity initially isolates her with the shame of being alone. Meredith Resnick’s story “Original Bra” weaves together her complicated feelings about body image with her quest to buy her first bra. From spilling long forbidden secrets to revealing their innermost faults, these authors openly share poignant and life-changing moments of humiliation, embarrassment, and despair, along with the wisdom they learned from letting go of the shame that’s been weighing them down.

Freeing, provocative, and audacious, Dancing at the Shame Prom is about divulging the secrets that have made you feel small so that you can stand up straight, let the shame go, and finally—decisively—move on with your life.

Meet the Authors

Amy Ferris is an author, editor, screenwriter and playwright. Her memoir, Marrying George Clooney, Confessions From a Midlife Crisis (Seal Press) is off-broadway bound, CAP21 Theater Company, March 2012. She has contributed to numerous anthologies, and has written everything from Young Adult novels to movies and films. She co-wrote Funny Valentines (Julie Dash, Director), and Mr. Wonderful (Anthony Minghella, Director). Funny Valentines was nominated for a Best Screenplay award, and numerous BET awards. She co-created and co-edited the first ever "all women's issue" of Living Buddhism magazine. She serves on the Executive Board of Directors at The Pages & Places Literary Festival, Peters Valley Arts, Education and Craft Center, and is on the Advisory Board of The Women's Media Center. She is on faculty at The San Miguel de Allende Writers Conference. She is a visiting teacher at the UCLA Writers Workshop (extension). She contributes regularly to iPinion Syndicate. Her number one goal, desire, dream: Is that all women awaken to their greatness. She lives in Pennsylvania with her husband, Ken.

You can find her blogging in the middle of the night at:
www.marryinggeorgeclooney.com.

To purchase this book click on any of the above photographs or copy and paste the below link.

http://www.amazon.com/Dancing-Shame-Prom-Sharing-Stories/dp/1580054161/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1352648487&sr=8-1&keywords=Dancing+at+the+Shame+Prom%3A+Sharing+the+Stories+that+Kept+Us+Small

Hollye Dexter recently completed a second memoir, What Doesn’t Kill You. Her essays have been published in anthologies (Chicken Soup For the Soul, Answered Prayers, and Character Consciousness) and in many online publications. She writes regularly for iPinion Syndicate and AOL Patch News. A singer/songwriter with four albums out, she also founded the award-winning nonprofit Art and Soul, running workshops for teenagers in the foster care system. In 2007 she received the Agape Spirit award from Dr. Michael Beckwith (from The Secret) for her work with at-risk youth. Together, with Amy Ferris she teaches writing workshops, helping others to find their authentic voices. She is on staff for the San Miguel Writer’s Conference and a visiting author at UCLA extension. She lives in Southern California with her husband and three children, where she hikes, plays music and blogs about living an authentic life at www.hollyedexter.blogspot.com

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TOP's Tuesday ~ Days of Preparation

12/18/2012

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Christmas is a week from today. How will you spend the next few days? Will you work forty hours with shopping, baking, cooking, and wrapping consuming your after hours? Do you have an event, meeting, or party to attend? And possibly more than one?

This week in preparation of Christmas I cleared our schedule of appointments and events so we could enjoy some family time and quiet time. Of course I have a Christmas grocery list and menu to prepare and cookies to bake and frost, but my hope is not to have them the priority or focus. Family and Jesus' birthday should be and this is my goal.

News to report:

*The final (I hope) proof book is in the mail! Woo Hoo! Special thanks to my wonderful editorial & critiquing friends and family.

*Our Christmas gift/video will be posted Friday, December 21, 2013.

* The feedback from the mini-blog posts and family photos on the "Where's Heidi?" Facebook page are such an encouragement to us. My entire family is touched by your words, prayers, and notes.

Our Tuesday blogs are titled, T.0.P.'s Tuesday and will provide you with information relating to the release of Where's Heidi? One Sister's Journey. It might be an upcoming speaking engagement, the cover, an excerpt, or bizarre tidbits about the publishing process you may not be aware of.

Why is is called T.O.P.'s Tuesday? Great question! Heidi played volleyball for the Bishop Cunningham Jr./Sr. High School until it closed in 1992. On February 14th, 1992 the Palladium Times (an Oswego, New York newspaper) named
my sister, Heidi M. Allen athlete of the week. This was exciting and we were all proud of her but it was the name they gave her that stirred the most attention, "Tower of Power".

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Refection and Connection

12/17/2012

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The work week begins and prayers intensify. For the children, families, and entire community near Sandy Hook Elementary school -- the pain and remnants of their once safe neighborhood shadow their Christmas preparations and memory making. Tragedy affects more than the victim and his or her family. In this case, multiple victims and crime scenes create multiple connections and cause for grief.

The loss of one child, in an individual setting, is hard to comprehend, so the thought of multiple horrific acts of violence is mind boggling. My heart continues to break for the loss of my only sister. It has been over eighteen years since her kidnapping yet Heidi and her tragic abduction aren't events of the past.

Our family and community continue to remember Heidi throughout the year. The holidays remind those affected to reflect and appreciate the friends, family, and neighbors God has blessed them with. A sweet woman on the "Where's Heidi?" Facebook page shared thoughts of encouragement, love, and compassion.

"I am sure that you do realize, that like these children from Connecticut were everybody's children and their loss has affected the nation, Heidi was the communities child and we have and will forever feel her loss and remember her!"

Thank you Debbie. Your words blessed me more than you might know. My heart still breaks as I think of the precious innocence lost this past week. As I crossed the threshold for school this morning, it was a somber place. We, your children's teachers, strive to not only educate your children but to keep them safe while they are with us. This morning, our students (and I am sure all the children across the country) were greeted with extra hugs and praises.

Continue to pray for all affected by the shooting at Sandy Hook Elementary. Cherish the moments you have with your loved ones. Choose to make a difference and help to keep our children safe. Do all these things in love and hope for tomorrow.

Don't let fear captivate your heart and mission in life. God didn't take those innocent lives, a man did. God gave us free-will and choice ~ choose to bless, inspire, uplift, motivate, encourage, and be there for those in need when they ask the tough questions.

This isn't an easy task, trust me. I spent a decade focused on the loss, discounting God and blaming Him. It wasn't until one child said, "Mrs. Buske, you need Jesus!" that I truly realized how lost and hurt I as. You may not be able to see the good or live without fear today but please continue to pray and talk with God. Give it to Him, His shoulders are big enough to carry our burdens while embracing the twenty-plus angels that joined Him on Friday.

"When I am afraid, I will trust in you. In God, whose word I praise, in God I
trust; I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me?"
Psalm 56:3-4

Note: The Christmas video scheduled to be shared on tomorrow's TOP's Tuesday blog will be posted on Friday, 12/21/12 out of respect for those grieving in CT.

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Holding My Family a Little Closer

12/16/2012

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This is a picture from last year's black Friday shopping with my daughter. Yesterday my family spent the day together laughing, shopping, and simply enjoying each other's company.

I continue to pray for everyone affected by the Sandy Hook Elementary school tragedy. Of course the greatest loss is to the parents but my heart was ever so touched as one reporter talked about the effect it would have on the siblings of the students involved. The loss and pain starts at home but dominoes into the extended family and friends, to the community, and to our entire country.

My words are few today and the weight on my heart is heavy. Please pray for everyone affected, including yourself. There is great tragedy in this world but thankfully, Jesus overcame this pain and sorrow when He was crucified on the cross just for this.

May we lay our troubles at the foot of the cross and let Jesus comfort us in the midst of such great loss. Amen.

"Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you. In his kindness God called you to share in his eternal glory by means of Christ Jesus. So after you have suffered a little while, he will restore, support, and strengthen you, and he will place you on a firm foundation. All power to him forever! Amen."
1Peter 5:7, 10-11

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"Enveloped" in Love

12/14/2012

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In todays modern world, it is common to receive an email or instant message from friends and family but an actual card is becoming a lost and unappreciated blessing. I know I've stood on this soap box before but I believe it is a point worth revisiting.

As I researched for first book, Where's Heidi? One Sister's Journey, I used my grandmother's diaries to trigger memories and see Heidi's kidnapping through her eyes. Her journals date back to when my Mom was a child. I could have gotten lost in my Gram's words. I only read through the 1990's. From 1994, when Heidi disappeared until 1999 when she passed away.

Some might say, "That's a lot of work." They would be correct yet to read what happened each day in my Gram's life was exciting. See, my Gram didn't use a typical "diary" to journal in. Instead, she used a calendar. You know, the ones with Monday through Sunday split between two pages.

A common complaint was there wasn't enough room on Sundays and this was the day the most happened in our family. lol This was also the day we all gathered at Gram and Aunt Nancy's, so I know there were probably too many stories to for even the entire week.

The point, Gram used her journal to "highlight" the important parts of each day or the people and activities that captured her attention. I'm thankful she didn't use a Word document to tell her story and life highlights. If she had, I would of missed Polaroid shots of Gram's life.

I think this is the reason I love handwritten notes and cards so much. There is something about each person's unique handwriting, spacing, and flow from word to word. I can drop an email or note in less than a minute but a card, this takes time ~ time to pick the perfect card, to choose the right color pen to use, and to formulate the words to be written ahead of time in one's head.

Unlike a typed document, we can't "delete" if we make a mistake. We are committed to the words written or we scrap the selected card to start the process again. If my Gram's journals were in a word document I would have missed priceless gems of truth and love as I "searched" for particular words in her document.

Life is too short and we don't know what tomorrow brings. Instead of "searching" with a common word, we need to slow down and really listen and read. Whether it be a sweet note from a friend like the few I highlighted today or the words written in your Bible ~ one thing is required...your time. Cherish the words and hide them in your heart.

These are not merely letter formations working together to make words, sentences, and paragraphs ~ they are an expression of love, concern, and care for you by the one who sent it.

Have you written a note to tell someone how precious they are to you lately? If not, I encourage you to do it today. The price of a stamp is miniscule compared to the joy on the face of the person receiving your loving message. Who will you send a note to today?

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A Christmas Countdown on Facebook

12/13/2012

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In honor of Christmas and our loved ones who celebrate with Jesus
this year, Instead of my traditional blog series,
I am trying something new this year
to honor my younger sister, Heidi M. Allen.

No worries, there will still be daily blogs and some will
share Christmas memories of our family. This coming Tuesday's,
TOP's Tuesday blog, will have a Christmas gift from our
family to yours ~ a video song to share Heidi and I,
and our family with all of you. We are so excited to post
this next week. My production team worked hard
and chose two of my favorite Christmas songs,
one of which is "Sisters" from the
movie White Christmas. I can't say anymore,
you'll have to read the blog on December 18th, 2013.

So for the next twelve days leading up to Christmas
you are really getting a double-blog. One here as normal
and a second on my "Where's Heidi?" Facebook page.
If you haven't liked the page yet, it isn't too late.
Christmas photos of Heidi and I, and maybe some
of our family too will be posted on
the "Where's Heidi?" Facebook page
with a little snip-it. A mini-blog, if you will.

Merry Christmas from our family to yours.
Double blogs from now until Christmas Eve!
I pray you are as excited as we are for this.

Are you asking yourself,
"Why 6,935 Facebook likes by April 3, 2013?"
Good.

This is the number of days Heidi will have been missing, as of 4/3/13 ~ 6,935 days. Our hope and prayer is to have as many Facebook likes as the days Heidi is missing. A way to honor, remember, and pray for her.

With each like, there is at least one prayer said.

Our missing loved ones might be missing but never forgotten. If each person reading this likes and shares the "Where's Heidi?" Facebook page on their page, and at least one person from your Facebook page did the same, we would surpass the goal and would have extra likes to share with other missing persons.

A fun and creative way to remember the missing.
Thank you for your prayers and support.

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It Takes More Than A Thought...You Need Heart

12/12/2012

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It wasn't until 2006 when I first thought seriously about writing a book to share my sister, Heidi M. Allen's, kidnapping with others. To write a book can be the dream of many people yet if one is serious then they need to do their research.

My first draft was birthed as part of a writing contest. Each Labor Day weekend their is a "3-Day Novel Writing Contest", in 2006, the entry fee was $50. I knew there was a story in me but couldn't find the motivation or heart to write it down. Once I saw this contest advertised, something stirred in me. I decided to pay the money and register instantly. Of course, after the check was in the mail I regretted it but because I spent the money, I was committed.

At the end of three very long days I printed and submitted my entry. Seventy-six pages of emotional vomit to share Heidi's kidnapping from the sister's perspective. I never expected to win but knew I needed to get it out, so in my eyes, I was a success. One day I noticed an envelope from the contest with my name and address handwritten. "Does anyone write anything by hand anymore? Especially from a national writing contest?" The answer, yes.

Although I didn't win the contest, something more valuable was within the envelope. A handwritten note from one of the judges and contest organizers thanked me for entering with encouragement to finish writing my story. My book didn't meet their expectations for what they were looking for that particular year yet the judges all connected with my story and hoped I would finish and seek publication.

I was touched by the note but not enough to finish writing or even think about seeking a publisher. Instead, I ignored the folder on my computer that said "3_Day_Entry" and went on with life. A couple years later I stumbled upon the folder while looking for something else. I opened it briefly and even attempted to edit the first chapter. The emotional stress was too great and after less than three chapters, I closed the file and didn't open the folder again.

Fast forward two more years, 2010, this is when God grabbed my attention and my heart. Until writing this blog, I didn't realize the very month God revealed I was to write this book, was April. Of course I know it was April, because it was at our annual Spring Refresh that I saw the flyer for an upcoming writers' conference. God is so good. April can be a tough month and this is the same month I decided to seriously write and seek publication for my first book.

I attended this conference in July, 2010. I left inspired, motivated, determined, and very overwhelmed. I never realized how intense and involved the process of seeking publication was. There are multiple steps and many of these end with rejection. One thing I am thankful for continues to be the encouragement each rejection or fork in the road provided to me.

I never thought I would send my book to a publisher and they would instantly decide to publish my story but I never expected the steps necessary to even approach a publisher. You need a platform, book proposal, website, blog, a pitch, and of course a well written manuscript. Sadly, the last thing they see is your actual writing. I am thankful my parents raised me to understand that anything worth having is going to require work and perseverance.

Over six years later and my dream is coming to be a reality. I did submit my book to multiple publishers and even a literary agent. I'm blessed to say I received multiple "acceptances" yet the contracts did not honor God or Heidi, in my opinion.

God works in mysterious ways, this is so true. Not only did I decide to self-publish but some of the same editors from the publishing houses have provided editorial and publishing guidance to make Where's Heidi? One Sister's Journey the best possible book it can be.

I am thankful to have the opportunity and support network to make my dream become a reality but I couldn't do it on my own.

Where's Heidi? One Sister's Journey will be available on April 3, 2013 thanks to:
A God who provides
The encouragement of professional editors and publishers
Prayers of friends and family
Love of friends and family
Hard work and determination instilled by my parents and fueled by God

I pray you enjoy reading my first book when it is released. After Christmas arrangements for a book release party in Oswego will be finalized. A mystery book signing on April 3rd, in addition to the big celebration at The River's End Bookstore in Oswego, New York, will make this the best April 3rd our family has experienced since the fateful day we lost our Heidi.

My heart desires to help others hurting after the loss of a loved one. We all experience loss in our lives. Of course to lose Heidi is my greatest tragedy yet loss is loss. Do you have the heart to do what is necessary to heal and move on? How do you think reading my first book will help you through this process?

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TOP's Tuesday: Christmas Memories

12/11/2012

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With Christmas gently sneaking up on us and the beautiful white snow fluttering outside my window this morning I've decided to make today a "Day of Memories" on the blog.

As I read Facebook and listen to conversations at lunch there is a common theme, "While decorating the Christmas tree I..." so I thought it would be fun to carry this onto the blog this week as part of TOP's Tuesday. I will start with a two lies and a truth game.

Sappy:
While decorating the Christmas tree I realized my daughter has grown so much, she is taller than our artificial tree.

Humorous:
While decorating the Christmas tree I stepped on the soft angelic snow in the manger placed beneath the tree, thought it was a mouse, and screamed so loud Mags jumped. Then we both laughed till we cried.

Unbelievable:
While decorating the Christmas tree I realized there was a bird's nest snuggled within the branches, with two golden eggs still. So my adventure begins.

The choice is yours of what you share or how detailed your response is but please, pretty please, share a Christmas memory of past year's or this year. There is much hustle and bustle this time of year, can you pause to share a memory that might brighten the smile on the face of another. Priceless gifts and treasures. Thank you in advance.

Updates:
*Thank you for your prayers for my two speaking engagements this past weekend. I was blessed so much and the feedback has been positive and encouraging.

*Edits and revisions are still in process with hopes of wrapping them up with a pretty Christmas bow and returning the revision to the publisher for the next round of proofing.

*Christmas Video to be released on Next Tuesday, 12/18

*Book Release
Scavenger Hunt ~ As part of the March TOP's Tuesday blog series there will be one clue a week for a mystery book signing on April 3rd, 2013. Of course, the big release party will be at the River's End Bookstore (Oswego, New York) but in true Allen fun, I will be hidden somewhere for a special release with a limited number of copies. Nineteen years ago we searched for Heidi, on the 19th anniversary, I encourage you to search for the book detailing the story behind the headlines, as seen through the eyes of a sister.

*"Heidi Allen Remembrance Garden" ~ please say a prayer for Heidi and our missing children as you see the angel and star lighting their way home this Christmas season. See the December 2nd blog
for more details on this beautiful sight.

Our Tuesday blogs are titled, T.0.P.'s Tuesday and will provide you with information relating to the release of Where's Heidi? One Sister's Journey. It might be an upcoming speaking engagement, the cover, an excerpt, or bizarre tidbits about the publishing process you may not be aware of.

Why is it called T.O.P.'s Tuesday? Great question! Heidi played volleyball for the Bishop Cunningham Jr./Sr. High School until it closed in 1992. On February 14th, 1992 the Palladium Times (an Oswego, New York newspaper) named my sister, Heidi M. Allen athlete of the week. This was exciting and we were all proud of her but it was the name they gave her that stirred the most attention,"Tower of Power".

"While decorating the Christmas tree I..."

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Happy New Year 2012

“Tomorrow, is the first blank page
of a 365 page book.
Write a good one.”
― Brad Paisley

Not Your Average Marketing Portfolio

More Than A Beautiful Exterior

An Aitken Photo Shoot...So Much Fun

Additional photos will be shared in 2013 as part
of the website's face lift prior to the Where's Heidi? One Sister's Journey blog tour!

~ Thank you again John Aitken Photography ~
Phone - (315) 409-3005
Email - johnaitkenphotography@yahoo.com

Significance of Purple ~ Part II

So Much Love...Priceless Treasures

Mom popped in the purpleheart Christmas photo,
isn't that smile awesome?

The Significance of Purple ~ Part I

To learn more about the rest of my purpleheart Christmas...read tomorrow's blog. More pictures too!

Merry Christmas to one and all!

From our family to yours...

Twas the Night Before Heidi Disappeared

It's the 100th Day!!

Let the Lights Brighten Your Christmas

What gets you excited on Christmas morning? Part II of II

Merry Christmas from our family to yours!
The video will be reposted on Christmas Eve.

What gets you excited on Christmas Morning? Part I of II

"Shame Prom" ~ Meet Kristine Van Raden

Dancing at the Shame Prom:
Sharing the Stories that Kept Us Small

Meet the Authors

TOP's Tuesday ~ Days of Preparation

Refection and Connection

Note: The Christmas video scheduled to be shared on tomorrow's TOP's Tuesday blog will be posted on Friday, 12/21/12 out of respect for those grieving in CT.

Holding My Family a Little Closer

"Enveloped" in Love

A Christmas Countdown on Facebook

It Takes More Than A Thought...You Need Heart

TOP's Tuesday: Christmas Memories

"While decorating the Christmas tree I..."

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No Photographs, for any reason, from this site may be used without written permission from Lisa M Buske. Thank you for respecting this.

“Tomorrow, is the first blank page of a 365 page book. Write a good one.” ― Brad Paisley

Additional photos will be shared in 2013 as part of the website's face lift prior to the Where's Heidi? One Sister's Journey blog tour!~ Thank you again John Aitken Photography ~Phone - (315) 409-3005Email - johnaitkenphotography@yahoo.com

Mom popped in the purpleheart Christmas photo, isn't that smile awesome?

To learn more about the rest of my purpleheart Christmas...read tomorrow's blog. More pictures too!

From our family to yours...

Merry Christmas from our family to yours! The video will be reposted on Christmas Eve.

Dancing at the Shame Prom: Sharing the Stories that Kept Us Small

Meet the Authors

Note: The Christmas video scheduled to be shared on tomorrow's TOP's Tuesday blog will be posted on Friday, 12/21/12 out of respect for those grieving in CT.

"While decorating the Christmas tree I..."

Why do I write?

To contact Lisa:

Categories

Archives

No Photographs, for any reason, from this site may be used without written permission from Lisa M Buske. Thank you for respecting this.

“Tomorrow, is the first blank page
of a 365 page book.
Write a good one.”
― Brad Paisley

Additional photos will be shared in 2013 as part
of the website's face lift prior to the Where's Heidi? One Sister's Journey blog tour!

~ Thank you again John Aitken Photography ~
Phone - (315) 409-3005
Email - johnaitkenphotography@yahoo.com

Mom popped in the purpleheart Christmas photo,
isn't that smile awesome?

Merry Christmas from our family to yours!
The video will be reposted on Christmas Eve.

Dancing at the Shame Prom:
Sharing the Stories that Kept Us Small