I looked like this statue a time or two in my life time. My parents, aunts, uncles, and family could attest to it (but hopefully they restrain from the public humiliation and don't comment,lol) BUT even as an adult I've had these moments.
The positive, they aren't usually with other people around but the negative, they were directed to God. One day I had such a spell, I didn't even remember what it was all about when I was sobbing uncontrollably. Have you experienced a moment like this?
I apologized to God for acting like such a child and whiner and moved on. Fast forward a couple weeks or month and I read these verses and they took me back to my times of tantrum with God. It was one of those Ouchy moments. This time I didn't just apologize, I asked for forgiveness. I'm thankful God forgives when we ask for His forgiveness. I wish I had the strength and mindset to forgive like God. Don't you?
Anyway, this blog isn't about forgiveness but about getting it together before we are transitioning from Earth to Heaven. God isn't going to open the gates for one of His children throwing a temper tantrum...we need to deal with it while here. Our pains, hurts, sins, and unforgiveness don't miraculously disappear...they require time, Scripture, and answered prayer to help us through them before we are called home. I've had enough tantrums in my life time, it's time to grow up and stop "getting my panties in a wad", get over it, and deal with things that cause stress. What about you?
I don’t mean to say that I have already achieved these things
For I have told you often before, and I say it again with tears in my eyes,
that there are many whose conduct shows they are really enemies of the cross of Christ.
They are headed for destruction. Their god is their appetite,
they brag about shameful things, and they think only about this life here on earth.
But we are citizens of heaven, where the Lord Jesus Christ lives.
And we are eagerly waiting for him to return as our Savior.
He will take our weak mortal bodies and change them into glorious bodies like his own,
using the same power with which he will bring everything under his control.
Philippians 3:18 - 21
Have you ever screamed and yelled at God?
" Don’t be anxious about things; instead,
My friends were warmed up and ready to run but I just couldn't do it so I encouraged them to go and I'd see them at the finish. I enjoyed the laughter, conversation, and fellowship of the entire afternoon and evening. Yet the moment I thought about as we drove home and the sun was setting, with beautiful transitions of color capturing our attention and stopping conversation, was my quiet time on the walk. You are probably wondering how you can have quiet time with almost 7,000 people running and walking all around you, but it's possible. The above verses from Philippians kept coming to mind. I found myself looking up and praying these verses over and over.
Why do I share this with you? I'm not sure really, other than to encourage you it is possible to pray regardless of where you are and how many people are around. The time with friends and colleagues was great and memorable yet I woke up thinking about watching the clouds and these verses echoing in my thoughts. I'm thankful to have the best of both worlds, good friends and a great God.
What do you think about
when you walk/run in a race like this?
My "one" thing, although there is always a list (or two, lol) maintained in my life, there is one I am determined to achieve and succeed with. Last month I decided to join the Great Cycle Challenge to raise awareness and funds for childhood cancer research. They allow each participant to set their own goals. Since I haven't been on my bicycle much since our daughter was five, I started small (or so I thought) with 100 miles, this averages to about 3.5 miles a day. If you visit my page, click here, you'll notice I'm below where I need to be BUT I assure you I plan to persevere. My initial goal was 50 miles and I thought that was kind of wimpy but now I'm thinking for me, it was more realistic. Yet with Miss Lillian's brain cancer return, I am reminded, the #GCCUSA is meant to be a challenge so I'm thankful for not taking the easy way out.
My goal to ride 100 miles for Miss Lillian and her twin sister, Miss Emma is the ONE thing I'm striving to acccomplish this month. If you'd like to follow my journey, visit my Great Cycle Challenge Page by Clicking Here. If you'd like to donate to help me reach my $500 goal, thank you so much. The monies are used to fund cancerresearch for kids!! These are the strongest, most determined, and inspirational little fighters a person will meet in a life time.
I've traveled the cancer journey with great aunts, aunts, a friend, and then my Mom this past year. Their strength and will to fight amazed me but there is something in the eyes and spirit of a diagnosed child and their family that touches your heart and life in a way you can't put into words. I ride this month for Miss Lillian and her twin sister, Miss Emma. Cancer doesn't only effect the diagnosed, the entire family and community are touched and affected.
I dedicate this blog, song, and this month's ride to Miss Lillian and Miss Emma! You've got this ladies!
What is your ONE thing this month?
Meet Miss Lillian (left) and Miss Emma (right)
The Reason I Ride in the Great Cycle Challenge
to Fight Kids' Cancer
Meet Lillian and Emma Belfield. They are two of the strongest girls.
They inspire me every day! For the month of June I plan to dust off my bicycle after a decade of storage and ride to fight childhood cancer.
Miss Lillian's diagnosis of anaplastic astroblastoma brain cancer in January 2015
has not stopped her. Her determination to remain in school during her treatment
and her involvement with intramural sports with her sister outside the school day.
Lillian might have cancer but cancer doesn't have her, she is a fighter.
Her sister Emma is a fighter too. Childhood cancer is difficult in itself
but to have your twin experience it alongside you must be a challenge
outside anyone's understanding. Emma's grace and understanding
is profound and an example to anyone who sees her.
I'm in awe of Miss Emma's strength.
My 1st time on a bike since my daughter is 5 is to honor these two amazing young ladies and their battle.
My goal is to ride 100 miles throughout the month and I will be pedaling as hard as I can to reach my target...and my challenge starts NEXT WEEK.
Why am I doing this? Because cancer is the largest killer of children from disease in the United States – 38 children die of cancer every week.
It will be tough, but it's nothing compared to what these brave kids face every day of their lives as they battle this terrible disease.
Kids should be living life, not fighting for it.
And so I am taking on this personal challenge to raise funds to fight kids' cancer and give these kids the brighter futures they deserve...but I need your help.
Please support my challenge and join me in the fight to end childhood cancer by making a donation through my fundraising page.
Here's the link to my page: www.greatcyclechallenge.com/Riders/LisaBuske
All funds raised will support Children's Cancer Research Fund to continue their work to develop innovative treatments and find a cure for childhood cancer.
Thank you for your support.
Thank you for praying, remembering, and supporting
childhood cancers and the research to find a cure!
My brain keeps telling me there is more to be done but my body is trying to drown out this reality with exhaustion. I wouldn't trade one moment or minute of lost sleep for the amazing, beautiful, and inspiring weekend I spent with my hubby and daughter...and a variety of extended families.
We started with the annual Ride for Missing Children in the Mohawk Valley. It was a different beginning as Mags needed to stay back for a rehearsal at the Landmark Theater. Ed waited for her and they joined me late Thursday night. Friday we spent the day visiting a dozen or more schools and children to increase awareness of child safety, followed by a time of laughter, hugs, and tears with other families of the missing and exploited children across the country. Saturday morning instead of joining the families for breakfast we loaded the car up and headed to Hannibal for Mag's last dance recital as a high schooler. Not only were we on time, I was even able to help while she practiced and got into costume, hair, and make up. I love it when the dancers can handle the back stage details on their own.
Miss Jessica, the owner of Creation Studio, is so sweet and she made it possible for Mary's class to dance all three numbers in the first act, and for Mary's solo to be in the first act so we could scoot at intermission. We wanted to stay as this year's performance was better than last years but Mags needed to be in Syracuse in theater attire by 5:30 p.m. We enjoyed lunch with my Dad, well it was also our breakfast since we forgot to eat in the morning. Oops. We changed and hit the road again. The traffic was hectic and the pedestrians NOT using the cross walk at the "Taste of Syracuse" made for an interesting few blocks to the Landmark but thankfully we weren't the car rearended at the intersection. Thankful for the hedge of protection over us.
Our evening at the theater was nothing less than spectacular. To watch Mags perform on the Landmark stage with her high school theater peeps, and other talented theater kids from across the state was breathtaking. Little did we know the evening was only beginning. Mexico High School's production of "Mary Poppins" was up for five awards and our neighboring district, Oswego High School also had multiple nominations. Oswego County was represented and their talented shined brightly for others to see. One of Mexico's awards was for choreography but they didn't win.
Everyone was thrilled they were nominated. Then the unexpected happened, there was a nomination no one was aware of, "Outstanding Special Achievement Award", and our student choreographers at Mexico High School were not only one of the nominees, but the winners!! I couldn't stop the tears of joy and love from trickling down my cheeks for minutes. Proud Mama and faculty member moment for sure.
This proud Mom wanted to take a moment to share. I pray for senior parents, let's not spend our time crying and grieving the "lasts", let us celebrate them with anticipation of what is to come. To help us celebrate, my favorite to listen to when relaxing and writing.
Have a great week everyone!!
To the amazement of those who know me the best, it was the most difficult and rewarding, beneficial and challenging, and expressions of love I've given and received in my lifetime.
There is something beautiful about our children growing up. If we've done our job in raising them correctly, there will be bumps, bruises, and nervous moments as our kiddos head off to their lives as adults BUT with a proper foundation, trusting them to God, and having faith they will practice all they've learned...it will be good.
The song "Letting Go" by Suzy Bogguss has always brought a tear to my eyes but as I listen after this year of growth...it's time to share the hope and encouragement for the Mom's facing what I faced a year ago.
We grow while in the valley...
(or when our kiddos leave after graduation)
Will you share the greatest lesson or proudest moment you experienced after your kiddos left for school, the service, or to start their careers?
She has dreams and goals, with a plan to reach them. She has a solid foundation preparing her for the journeys ahead. As she prepares and counts down to the first day of college I think about how many of her peers are counting down to the last day of high school. In a sense, both are a sign of their growing up and leave the parents thinking and reflecting.
I have some friends already grieving the loss of their child when they descend to college, the armed forces, or into an apartment on their own as they join the work force. I haven't thought about the "empty nest" as many refer to it. I've heard horror stories of parents sobbing in their children's beds for the first days after their departure. (My husband is taking side bets on my state of mind, but that is probably another blog, lol). I've heard of some counting down the days until they are "rid of" their kids. Yikes! I think I fall somewhere in the middle.
At this moment and day in the year, I'm enjoying the memory making process. Today was her last senior photo shoot. This weekend she has her last dance recital as a high school student with plans of taking an adult class in the Fall. We have the opportunity to watch our daughter and her theater peeps perform on the Landmark Theater this weekend. I don't know what the end of August will look like but for now, I'm enjoying these precious and life changing moments. I'm not going to rush them by or overlook the gift they are to me.
Rather than focus on the what will be an empty nest,
take time to enjoy your little birds while they are still home!
I know we are and these are special moments...
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